Where Do I Even Begin

Where do I even start?
Where do I even begin?
What can I really say?
What can I really express?
How can these emotions be let out without destroying me,
Without freezing my heart,
Without freezing my soul,
I keep trying to make sense of it all,
And no matter where I try to start,
No matter where I try to begin,
The same thing keeps happening again and again,
There seems to be no answers to the millions of questions,
That haunt the very part of my soul,
That haunt the very part of my heart,
Where do I even start?
Where do I even begin?
Where can it end?
Where can it even begin?
The emotions are tied so deeply in my soul,
The emotions are tied so deeply in my heart,
The pain from the words that were spoken,
The pain from wondering where to go from here,
The pain from wishing of simpler days,
The pain of missing those before,
The guilt of it all,
The guilt of still caring,
There are so many emotions that are running through,
So many dreams of times past,
So many dreams that were never filled,
And now I stand here alone,
Wondering which direction my life will take me,
Wondering if I will ever find the one,
The one my heart seems to yearn for,
The one my soul is waiting for,
The one to call home,
The one that stands beside me,
The one that loves me,
And never lets anything stand in the way,
I do not know where to go,
I do not know where to turn to now,
I do not know where,
I could not even say where to begin,
I could not even say where to start,
All I can do is take it a step at a time,
Just put a foot in front of the other,
And hope for the best in life.