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The Path

Silence, Numb, Just this hole in my heart, Just these tears inside my heart, My life falling apart, My soul feeling empty, My heart feeling numb, Don’t know where to go from here, Don’t know if I can keep going, Trying to be strong but it ain’t easy, Trying to hold on for the person that truly loves me, Trying to keep breathing, Trying to keep the hope and feeling love, Silence, Numb, Just this whole in my heart, Just these tears deep in my soul, My life falling apart, My soul feeling empty yet complete, My heart feeling numb yet happy, One chapter seems to be ending And one seems to be just beginning, Pain from the hurt I have felt toward one, Love felt from the one that watches over me, Struggle and strife seems to be all that is left From the one that I have been with, And happiness and true love’s calling From the one that I dream of, Silence and numb is what I feel, It consumes the thoughts and moments, The memories and dreams for now, But I know deep in my mind, That the hole is

How Could You?

How could you treat me like that? How could you make me feel like I do not exist? How could you make it seem that I am not here? How could you ask me to put myself at risk? How could you tell me that you are sorry? When in your eyes your soul tells a different story? How could you put me in this place?How could you think that everything is going to be okay? How could you think that I am going to easily forget? How could you think that I am going to just pretend it didn’t happen? How could you think that this is going to keep going on? How could you think that I am going to stand back and take this? How could you think that this is going to be the way things Will be from now on? How can you just stand there and pretend that things are okay? How can you just stand there and think that I am alright With how things are now? How can you just think that this is okay? That it is okay for my health to be at risk? That it is okay for you to ignore me? That it is okay to not to talk to me? That

Every Time

Every time I hear your voice, I fall for you again, Every time my heart beats, My soul feels complete again, Every time the song plays, I think of us together, Every time I think of you, My soul just wants to fly, Every time you say I love you, My heart races with happiness, Every time I smile, I know it is due to you, Every time I feel happy, I know it is due to you, Every time my heart races, I know it is due to the thoughts of us, Every time I feel hope, I know deep inside that it is the hope You have brought back into my life, Every time there is this feeling of completeness, I know it is due to you bringing back The true emotions that have been hiding in my heart, The ones that I thought were alive but truly still hidden, You have brought out more than anyone else has, Every time I need some strength, I find it in your arms, I find it in your voice, I find it in the words you speak from your heart, I find it in every moment of this bliss, Every time I laugh, I know it is due to yo

You are Everything

You are everything in my life, You move the barriers put in place to protect me, You move the thoughts that swirl through my mind, You move the heart that beats in time with you, You calm the storms that are in my life, You make time stand still as I think of us, You steal my heart, You take my breathe away, You take me into your soul, You take me into this moment, You take me into this life, I forget that everything else is here, I just have to think of you, I just have to just picture you, I just have to feel this love between us, You are everything in my life, You are the soul that my heart has been searching for, You are the breathe that has been missing in my life, You are the purpose in this misguided life, I have found everything I have ever wanted, I have found everything I have ever needed, I have found a way back, I have found the true path, I have found this, You are everything in my life, You are the dreams of the past come alive, You are the moments of bliss I thought were

Thinking of Only You

Silence all around me, Nothing but the music I play thinking of you, No one is awake just my thoughts, Just my emotions, Just this heart of mine, Just thinking, Just wishing, Just hoping, Just wanting, I cannot get you out of my mind, I can only think of you, I can almost feel you next to me, I can almost hear those words you have spoken, I can hear you like the song in my heart, I feel we have known each other before, Thoughts swimming in my head, Thoughts of you in my mind, Thoughts of you in my heart, I cannot get you to leave my mind, I do not want to have you leave my mind, You have become my safety, My sanity when all the rest of the world seems blind, My life with meaning again, Everything you have done, Everything you have said, Everything that I feel speaks to me, Wondering where you have been before, Knowing that you were brought in my life for a reason, Knowing that you are forever in my mind, Knowing you have broken down the walls, Knowing that you have made me smile, The s

Please Say The Words

Please say those words again, Say how much you love me, Say how much you think I am beautiful, Say how much you think I am wonderful, Say how much you need me, Say how much you need me in your life, Tell me about how I am your happiness, Tell me about how I am everything you ever need, Tell me about how much I am needed in your life, That you cannot live without me, Tell me about the dreams we will make reality, Tell me about the nightmares ceasing, Tell me about the thoughts you think of when we do not speak, Tell me about the thoughts you think whenever you hear my voice, Tell me about the thoughts you think of whenever I come into your mind, Please say those words again my love, I need to hear them more than ever before, I need to hear those words spoken again, My life has been filled with madness, My sanity seems to hold by the threads of your love, My dreams seemed so shaded and the light of them gone, My thoughts were taken over by madness until you came into my life, Tell me abo

Wake Me Up

Wake me up, This has to be a dream, This cannot be reality, This has to be a memory, This has to be anything but what it is, This cannot be true, This cannot be real, This cannot be what is in my mind, Wake me up from this nightmare, Of the pain and suffering, The silence and the rain, Someone wake me up from this moment, Wake me up and tell me that this is not real, Wake me up and tell me that this is just a bad dream, That this isn’t the reality of my life, I need to feel the smiles again, I need to feel the sun on me again, I need to not feel suffocated in my mind, I need to feel the memory of life, The memory of love, The memory of happiness, Wake me up darling I need out of this world, I need back where you are, I need back in your arms, I need back where thoughts and love is not a struggle, I need back where things are different, Where I am accepted for who I am, Where I am accepted for being the person I am, Where my life means more than it seems to mean now, Where my dreams see

I Promise You

I promise you this my love, That I will love you despite what others might say, That my last breath would be of you, That my last thought would be of you, That my last moment would be with you, I promise with every breath of my being to stand up for you, To stand up for what is you and me, To stand up for this that has been brought to us, We didn’t mean perhaps for this to happen the way it has, But it has happened regardless, I promise you my heart and my soul, You are everything I have always wanted, And everything I wasn’t expecting, And everything I needed, And everything I wanted in the deepest part of my soul, And the dreams that was left unspoken yet true, And the thoughts that were there before you said them, I promise you this, You have a part of heart because my heart calls you, My mind says your name silently but loudly, Eternity seems to beat on forever, And the moments slow down and all I see is us, Within the rain of moments, The good and the bad, The moments just return

How Can I Not

How can I not love you more deeply than I have loved anyone? How can I not want to hold you in my arms and never let you go, How can I not want to give you pleasure instead of the pain you have felt? How can I not want to just show you all the love inside of me? How can I not want to travel to your heart and make myself at home? How can I not want this? How could I help myself around you? When just the first sentence you typed to me Transported me and took me away from everything out? When just the soft spoken moment in your voice Sends shivers down my spine? You are like a piece that I have been searching for, A moment lost in the sea finally found, A dream that was put in the wings Never thinking it would come true, But has been blessed by you, How can I not want to be with you every moment? Every second of the day? How can I not want to wipe any tears from the past away? How can I not want to show you truly and for once the true reality Of what love really is? How can I not just wan

I Need You

I need you my lover, I need you tonight, I need to have you near me, And I need to have you hold me tight, I need for you to kiss me, I need you to love me, I need you to hold me, I need you to please me, I need you in every way, Every way I can, Until we cannot breathe, And all we hear is our hearts, Our hearts beating as one, Beat together, beat together, Louder and louder, Than soft again, I need you my darling, I need you here and now, I need you so much that my being aches, Because you are not here beside me, Because my soul doesn’t feel the same, My breathing doesn’t feel the same, My mind doesn’t feel the same, My heart doesn’t feel the same, I need you so much it hurts, It hurts whenever you are not near, I need to have you with me, I need you here, I need you my lover, My soul and dream, My love and my life, My heart and my everything, I need you, And I cannot stand not having you, Because you are my breathe And I cannot breathe truly without you, Because you are the piece of

Yahoo Group Tutorial- Customizing Your Group

Customizing Your Group Before you invite and/or advertise your group you will want to customize your group even more to make your group seem inviting and something people will want to join. First you will need to go to Management and going to management will be good for a lot of various things so remember how to get there as you will want to use it a lot during the time you have the group. It will be listed on the left side just scroll down as you see messages and other links to things that will be covered later on in the tutorial. Once you have clicked on Management the first part you want to go to is description and appearance which you can find if you go to the left side on the top it will list Description and Appearance, Web Tools, Messages, and Membership. First we are going to click on the Description and Appearance. Once you have clicked on this you will notice that you can edit the description itself, the web address which is how people can find your group other than search

Yahoo Group Tutorial- Customizing Your Group

Customizing Your Group Before you invite and/or advertise your group you will want to customize your group even more to make your group seem inviting and something people will want to join. First you will need to go to Management and going to management will be good for a lot of various things so remember how to get there as you will want to use it a lot during the time you have the group. It will be listed on the left side just scroll down as you see messages and other links to things that will be covered later on in the tutorial. Once you have clicked on Management the first part you want to go to is description and appearance which you can find if you go to the left side on the top it will list Description and Appearance, Web Tools, Messages, and Membership. First we are going to click on the Description and Appearance. Once you have clicked on this you will notice that you can edit the description itself, the web address which is how people can find your group other than search

Yahoo Group Tutorial- Customizing Your Group

Customizing Your Group Before you invite and/or advertise your group you will want to customize your group even more to make your group seem inviting and something people will want to join. First you will need to go to Management and going to management will be good for a lot of various things so remember how to get there as you will want to use it a lot during the time you have the group. It will be listed on the left side just scroll down as you see messages and other links to things that will be covered later on in the tutorial. Once you have clicked on Management the first part you want to go to is description and appearance which you can find if you go to the left side on the top it will list Description and Appearance, Web Tools, Messages, and Membership. First we are going to click on the Description and Appearance. Once you have clicked on this you will notice that you can edit the description itself, the web address which is how people can find your group other than search

Yahoo Group Tutorial- Customizing Your Group

Customizing Your Group Before you invite and/or advertise your group you will want to customize your group even more to make your group seem inviting and something people will want to join. First you will need to go to Management and going to management will be good for a lot of various things so remember how to get there as you will want to use it a lot during the time you have the group. It will be listed on the left side just scroll down as you see messages and other links to things that will be covered later on in the tutorial. Once you have clicked on Management the first part you want to go to is description and appearance which you can find if you go to the left side on the top it will list Description and Appearance, Web Tools, Messages, and Membership. First we are going to click on the Description and Appearance. Once you have clicked on this you will notice that you can edit the description itself, the web address which is how people can find your group other than search

Yahoo Group Tutorial- Intro/How To Make A Group

Have you ever really wanted to learn how to successfully make, help co own, or moderate a group? Well now is your chance you will be getting tips, hints, and real advice from someone that has been referred as the Groups Queen. Currently I own 10 groups and moderate 4. I have owned and moderated many various groups ever since groups were clubs in 1999. If you have any specific questions at anytime on any subject or point on this please feel free to reply to the post or email me at mandyshorb@gmail.com How Do You Make A Group? Once on the group’s page you click on the upper right corner where it says: start your group today. You click on that to get started on making your own group. The very first thing you have to do is categorize your group this is to help those to find a way to your group other than advertising it to your friends and any other groups you might be in. Once you figure out exactly where you want to place your group you click on the button place my group here. You

Sudi Meets the World Article 3

Is book banning and burning still a thing of the past? Should we as a group of people be afraid that people who disagree with certain books might try to make the power were books are banned from libraries, schools, and other places? With the current story of one lady trying to ban the Harry Potter Book Series from her child’s school one would think that the burning times might not be such a thing of the past anymore. I personally felt the whole thought that someone would try to ban a book series that is fantasy related just due to it being about a wizard is a bit absurd at best, have we come to a world where we have to be afraid of what we write just because it might get banned when it is a writer’s creative license? Are we in danger that books like Harry Potter and countless others that are considered fantasy will be banned from our shelves just due to one person? Will we soon hear more Boards of Education and other places such as boards for libraries and other places on the subjec

Sudi Meets the World Article 2

As I sat down deciding to work on my article for this month I seemed to be having not the problem of writers block, but more of a decision of what to write about for the month. I have such a good amount of things I could work on, and it seemed all the information I have on various articles I could do would be great, but there was one problem. It wasn’t what I wanted to use for this little column I have. Now, some might wonder why I would make such a fuss, when it will still be made an article. I wanted to do something special for this little column not to say the other articles aren’t special, but I felt that this was like my blog, a little bit of me in the world of life. There seemed to be so much on my mind, everything from the anniversary of September 11th which this year would be the 5th year since it happened, to the recent event of Steve Irwin’s passing. Not to mention that everything felt weird, this whole week I Have noticed that things were not going right and it seemed to sta

Sudi Meets the World Article 1

Merry meet all! Great to have you here. You will find out I am a pretty easy going caring and try to be pretty smiley person. I've been very excited since I knew I would be a part of this so it's good to meet you all. I will be offering tarot readings, information on various Wiccan practices, herbs, Goddess and the like and how we deal with life on a daily basis in terms of our faith verses those of other faiths. Let me tell you a bit more about myself just in case you didn't read my bio on the website. My name is Mandy Shorb but you can call me Mandy or Sudi I'll answer to both. I have been interesting in Paganism since I was a sophomore in High School. I just recently have been getting more intoned with it again although I have been a member of a few groups that celebrate Wiccan and Pagan paths for a few months now. I am currently taking classes through Witch School which is wonderful some stuff I never knew about and some are great refreshers on things I did learn th

I Didn't Hear it on the News

I didn’t hear it on the news today, About how you were changing you way, About how you were leaving the world, With so many tears on people’s faces, The world lost someone great today But I didn’t hear it on the news today, I didn’t hear it on the news today, How much you impacted everyone around you, But you were not told about because you weren’t A celebrity you were what is considered normal, And normal doesn’t sell news today, I didn’t hear it on the news today, That you were marrying the guy of your dreams, And that you couldn’t tell me because the news Was all filled with things of sadness and not greatness, Of wars and pain, Of hate and religion, Of politics and strife, I didn’t hear it on the news today, That you had a new joy that you brought in the world, That you brought a new face to the planet, That your life forever changed, That you were now experiencing parenthood, I didn’t hear it on the news today, That the person you thought loved you, Broke your heart into millions

How To Write an Author Bio

When you are working on an author’s bio you normally want to have certain information in it including of course your name or a name you go by if you have a pen name, lot of times especially if it is a long term assignment or a book getting published you want a general location, and a little history about your writing. You may include your age but I normally suggest against it due to the work that is involved in updating it constantly. I also do not suggest giving out your full mailing address unless it is a PO Box when it comes to fan clubs and other correspondence with your readers not to mention it helps keep your privacy. Now some other things you want to include are any web links to your work or to a site you might have featuring your work as well. This will give yourself traffic which might help you sell more things if you are selling something or at least generate a fan base for your work as you work on various portions on your website. There are many various places you can go

What Might Have Been

What if I waited longer for you to come home, Would you have found me and made me yours again? Would you have brushed away all the tears deep In the lonely heart you left me when you vanished Without a trace? Would my life been changed and would I be Where I am now? If I stayed in touch with you, Would we have dated? Would we have told each other the feeling In our young hearts and minds? Would we had the courage to say that I like you More than just a friend? What would have happened if I turned around Instead of walking away? Would our relationship lasted longer? Or did I prevent the enviable? Would we have met with a kiss if I came back to you? Or would I have decided that walking away Was the best thing to do? What would have happened if I didn’t listen To a lot of people that gave me advice on relationships How would that have changed where I am today? There seems to be more questions than answers On what might have been if things were different, If I had taken a different path, A

Days of Summer

Summer blows you a kiss as the days get warm, The light of the sun warms your face, The heat of the memory of the Summer Fling’s embrace, The cool of the touch when the Fling ends, The feelings of temptation calls your name, The feelings of lust pound on your soul, The wanting of more reminds you every day, Just how close you came to forever love, The tears and pain hit your eyes, And fall like a flood, Because you thought it ended to soon, You thought it would be more than a Fling, You thought maybe just this once, Life would never be the same, Life would be filled with the love you always dreamed, The love that is buried in the depths of your soul, You want to lose hope by the end of the Summer, You do not want to have anymore Summer Dreams, But you feel a voice calling inside of you, Saying no, don’t give up yet, You wonder if you can find your hope, If you can find your ground, You wonder if you could ever stop, Ever stop the pain that comes at times With the warmth of the Summer,

Don't Try to Change Me

Don’t try to change me, I will not follow you just blindly, Do not try to silence my voice, Just because I believe differently than you, Do not say oh she will hopefully come around When talking of your beliefs Because I will not change myself on behalf of you, I am who I am because I’ve been down that path before And I have seen the close mindedness and harshness of reality, I have seen that the door just seems to close and it does not call me, And it never will, Don’t try to change me by trying to lecture to me, And try to make me feel bad for choosing What I have chosen as my path in this life, Don’t not give me the all mighty then thy speeches, I will just not listen and I will walk away, Just respect my choices and I will respect yours, Do not try to convert me, I do not need converting or saving, I am who I am and I will not change Just for you, I will not change for anyone but myself, Don’t try to change me, Instead accept me, for who I am, And who I am going to be, Please don’t

Dependence

I want you to need me, To want to hold me forever in your arms, To kiss my lips and no one else’s, I want you to just depend on my touch To keep you warm at night, And to keep you warm no matter where we are, I want you desire this, The love that is in my flesh, The love that is in my soul, The love that desires you more than anything, Anything in this world, I want you to call my name And say how I am the only one, How you cannot breathe without me, How you cannot think without me near, How you don’t want to be anything But this love of mine in my heart and soul, I want you to depend on me, As I depend on you To be my heart, To be my soul, To be my love forever more, To be everything I have ever desired, And oh so much more, I want to kiss your lips and no one else’s, I need you and no one else, I depend on your touch to keep me warm, I desire all that is you, And this heart, And this soul, And us. I call upon you my love, To make me happy when I am sad, To make me laugh when I am dow

Childish Behaviors

You try to cause drama with every single thing you do, You try to get us to bend to your every want and need, Thinking that if you do certain things you will make us Want to do what you want done for you, You cut up pictures of us And send a note on how you are no longer my mom's mom, Well we have had it up to the end of the road, We do not want to deal with your drama, We do not want to deal with your childish behavior, We do not want to feel like we have to do something Just to make you happy, What happened to family? Why do you ask for things and go on about How everything should be about you, We all here deal with various things going on, But we don't let that stop us from going on, We don't rant and rave, And cause drama just because we don't get our own way, We don't ask you for much Yet when we have you make it seem as if we asked For the whole world to be delivered to our plates, Well the time has come where we cut you out of our lives, No more drama will be

Ghost Admirer

I draft in the dream world, Let myself fall deeper, And deeper into space, Try to let go everything, Just to catch one glimpse of your face, I want to see the person in my dreams, The one that haunts my constant memories, Who are you my mind asks? Where are you my heart asks? Why do you hunt me so my body asks? Why are you just a dream my soul asks? Why do you try to promise me things I know that will never happen? My hands are tied, My heart isn’t free, My love belongs to someone else, But yet there you are in your secret glory, Looking at me and I look at you, And I try to figure out why you are there, Why are you try to make me believe that My life isn’t as full as I want it to be, Why don’t you show your face? Why can’t I see your eyes? Why won’t you tell me your name? Why am I left with more questions than answers? Who are you my mind asks over and over And over again, I don’t know what to tell myself, I don’t know much but the memories from every night Every night spent in the dr

Ghost Memories

Rain falls down on the broken path of yesterday, Why do you still hunt my mind and my heart? The memories, The feelings, The harshness of yesterday, The pain of never knowing, The heart that wanted answers, The dreams always in the dark, You still are there in my heart, A piece of me cannot seem to let you go, No matter how long ago it was Since I lost heard your voice, Or saw your face, But I can still see it in my mind, My mind cannot seem the erase the memory, Or let go of the picture that plays in my mind, My heart although loves another and is happy, Still cannot forget how you made me feel, How things felt so perfect But than was torn apart And broken apart as if it never existed, As if the feelings were never there, As if you never existed but were just An imagination of my heart and soul, But I know deep in my heart you were real, The pain you left was real, The memories are real, The dreams are real, How you seem to scream my name over and over Again in my dreams are real, Wil

Lost

Lost, Confused, Don't know what is up from down, Numb, Pain, The feelings in my heart and soul, Memories Thoughts, Flowing through my mind, Broken Shattered, The feeling of my heart, Tear drops falling, Heart breaking, Will time heal this wound? Questions with no answers, Feelings without any words, Feelings of self doubt, Feeling blame on myself, Trying to deal with the lost Of something I have wanted for so long, Hoping that the sun will come soon, That the rain will wash away, But the confusion and the numb is there, There in the dark corners of my soul, There where sometimes I cannot see But I can feel, Feel this lost feeling, And I wonder will it ever truly go away?

To The Ends of the World

Together you and I will fly to the ends of the world Just to have today alone just you and I, Our fun will be the look in each others eyes As we enjoy the pleasures of being in each others company There will be no end to the happiness that is brought From this silent but loud conversation of our hearts, Happy are the two of us as we breathe slowly each other, Hands and hands meeting together, Lips on lips kissing each other, Dreams and dreams brought together Making the soul and heart bind together in love. This is what dreams are made of these moments in time, These moments that seem sometimes lost in space, And the busyness of our lives, But we must press on together you and I, Even if we must learn to fly to other parts in our souls, Because this love is sacred and it is strong, And as long as we are together our love can never be wrong.

Celestial Moon Magic

She felt the magic within her, The magic from the moon and the stars, Of old times gone and almost forgotten, Of old times still in her memories, Of old times that was in her blood and soul, Of faeries and fairytales of old, But the reality was ingrained within her, She knew that the magic was real, She knew that the moon and stars guided As she worked quietly in her circle, She casted and dreamed, She dreamed of a place where magic was not hidden, Not hidden like it was now, Not where she had to hide everything she was Just to stay alive and do what she needed and wanted, Because she knew that her life was important To the fabric of the dream, The dream of where magic was reality And not just in her life but everywhere, And that it would be alive just like days old.

Changes of Spring

I have seen a many different life changing springs, I have seen the rain fall around and drown my heart ,I have seen the sun shine and than be covered by the clouds Shortly after it seems that the sun would finally shine forever, I have seen the wind blow, The oceans crash ,The tears fall, The memories stop, The memories start, The memories last, Dreams broken, Dreams repaired, Dreams put back together through much healing and time, Love ended, Love started, Love mending,I have seen many changes of spring in my life, Changes for the better, Changes for the worse, Changes for what could go either way, I have seen many changes of spring, Changes I wanted, Changes I needed, Changes I didn't ask for, Changes I did ask for, And changes I would not change anything else in the world Because of the outcome in my life.

Thankful Of

I am thankful of this, Of a time and place without the TV on, Of a sunlight time on a beach with you and I, Of purple sunsets in Paris, Of the loud memories, Of the quiet memories, Of these memories right here and now in the silence Of sometimes just watching TV, Of sometimes just cuddling close together Without thinking of the time or anything else in the world, I am thankful of the place within us Of how we link so close together, Of how we are able to Faithfully keep together No matter what may be thrown in our way, I am thankful of this, The love I see everyday when I look into your eyes. Dedicated to David Shorb

Our Lifetime Of Dreams

This is our Lifetime of Dreams, This is our sun within the spring, There is no rain within this, There is no pain around us anymore, There is no heartache around us, There is just this simplicity of our dreams, The simplicity of our love, Let the waters fall around us, Let the blue skies fill our love forever, The country might go on forever or might die But that doesn’t matter as long as there is you and I, This is our lifetime of dreams, This is about you and me, This is about everything that will always forever be, And that is the simplicity of our eternity. Dedicated to David Shorb

Every Time

Every time I think of you my heart skips a few beats, Every time I dream of you my mind forgets Where I really am and drifts to your arms, Every time I think of your face and your eyes Shining I get lost in the feeling of knowing That you truly love me in every sense of the word, Every time I talk to you, you make my heart melt You make it seem as if time stands still, That there is only you and I And that nothing else matters In the whole entire world, Every time we talk I know that you accept me For whom I am and who I want to be, You give me so much hope, And make me want to strive even higher For my dreams, You give me light through the darkness, Sunlight when it is dark and cold, You give me strength when I feel That all of mine has disappeared in the darkness That is the main part of this world, Every night I think of you and wish you well, I think of how I would hold you so tight And never let go, I think of how much love I could give you As I looked in your eyes for the very fi

The Best I Ever Had

Sort of in the tune of Vertical Horizon's song of the same name or at least that was the inspiration of this piece. So the memories sail away out to the grey sky morning, Sometimes the pain feels like it is going to stay, Through the cold and winter, It feels unfair now that you are gone now, My life feels so cold because you were the best I had ever had, They say that time heals all wounds, But they never met you my dear, You stole my heart right away, From the first moment you spoke my name, And I remember that night, When our love felt like it would last, But than before I knew it you seemed To be nothing but a distant memory, Oh how it hurt those tears I cried, I didn’t want to let you go, Wanting to just go and hide, But the pain was so much to bear And I know you would have wanted Me to be happy, But it still didn’t feel the same The way it should have now, Because you were the best I ever had, Sometimes it still feels like a dream As if it isn’t real now, As if the moments w

Sometimes

Sometimes in the darkest corners of my mind, Your memories speak to me and soothe me Through the trouble times of my life, The thought of you hunts my dreams Even in my happiest of days, The reminding of the silent what if, Sometimes in the daydreams of the light, I could still hear your voice speak to me As if you were next to me, And I feel the intensity as if it was yesterday All over again, Sometimes the songs whisper through my being As if it was playing the same melody of the time lost That I never regain and the hunting of the answers I never really found, Sometimes I feel my heart rebreaking As if it was that day I finally gave you up Because I never heard from you again, And the pain and the intensity was almost more Than our short lived relationship, Sometimes I wonder if you had meant for it to happen this way, If you were just suppose to be a footprint in my heart Or a restarting of letting me believe in love again, Because the darkness seemed to consume the yellow Warm ray