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The Path

Silence,
Numb,
Just this hole in my heart,
Just these tears inside my heart,
My life falling apart,
My soul feeling empty,
My heart feeling numb,
Don’t know where to go from here,
Don’t know if I can keep going,
Trying to be strong but it ain’t easy,
Trying to hold on for the person that truly loves me,
Trying to keep breathing,
Trying to keep the hope and feeling love,
Silence,
Numb,
Just this whole in my heart,
Just these tears deep in my soul,
My life falling apart,
My soul feeling empty yet complete,
My heart feeling numb yet happy,
One chapter seems to be ending
And one seems to be just beginning,
Pain from the hurt I have felt toward one,
Love felt from the one that watches over me,
Struggle and strife seems to be all that is left
From the one that I have been with,
And happiness and true love’s calling
From the one that I dream of,
Silence and numb is what I feel,
It consumes the thoughts and moments,
The memories and dreams for now,
But I know deep in my mind,
That the hole is only there for a moment,
That my…

How Could You?

How could you treat me like that?
How could you make me feel like I do not exist?
How could you make it seem that I am not here?
How could you ask me to put myself at risk?
How could you tell me that you are sorry?
When in your eyes your soul tells a different story?
How could you put me in this place?How could you think that everything is going to be okay?
How could you think that I am going to easily forget?
How could you think that I am going to just pretend it didn’t happen?
How could you think that this is going to keep going on?
How could you think that I am going to stand back and take this?
How could you think that this is going to be the way things
Will be from now on?
How can you just stand there and pretend that things are okay?
How can you just stand there and think that I am alright
With how things are now?
How can you just think that this is okay?
That it is okay for my health to be at risk?
That it is okay for you to ignore me?
That it is okay to not to talk to me?
That it is okay to not a…

Every Time

Every time I hear your voice,
I fall for you again,
Every time my heart beats,
My soul feels complete again,
Every time the song plays,
I think of us together,
Every time I think of you,
My soul just wants to fly,
Every time you say I love you,
My heart races with happiness,
Every time I smile,
I know it is due to you,
Every time I feel happy,
I know it is due to you,
Every time my heart races,
I know it is due to the thoughts of us,
Every time I feel hope,
I know deep inside that it is the hope
You have brought back into my life,
Every time there is this feeling of completeness,
I know it is due to you bringing back
The true emotions that have been hiding in my heart,
The ones that I thought were alive but truly still hidden,
You have brought out more than anyone else has,
Every time I need some strength,
I find it in your arms,
I find it in your voice,
I find it in the words you speak from your heart,
I find it in every moment of this bliss,
Every time I laugh,
I know it is due to you,
Every time I breathe,
I thin…

You are Everything

You are everything in my life,
You move the barriers put in place to protect me,
You move the thoughts that swirl through my mind,
You move the heart that beats in time with you,
You calm the storms that are in my life,
You make time stand still as I think of us,
You steal my heart,
You take my breathe away,
You take me into your soul,
You take me into this moment,
You take me into this life,
I forget that everything else is here,
I just have to think of you,
I just have to just picture you,
I just have to feel this love between us,
You are everything in my life,
You are the soul that my heart has been searching for,
You are the breathe that has been missing in my life,
You are the purpose in this misguided life,
I have found everything I have ever wanted,
I have found everything I have ever needed,
I have found a way back,
I have found the true path,
I have found this,
You are everything in my life,
You are the dreams of the past come alive,
You are the moments of bliss I thought were gone,
You are the bringer…

Thinking of Only You

Silence all around me,
Nothing but the music I play thinking of you,
No one is awake just my thoughts,
Just my emotions,
Just this heart of mine,
Just thinking,
Just wishing,
Just hoping,
Just wanting,
I cannot get you out of my mind,
I can only think of you,
I can almost feel you next to me,
I can almost hear those words you have spoken,
I can hear you like the song in my heart,
I feel we have known each other before,
Thoughts swimming in my head,
Thoughts of you in my mind,
Thoughts of you in my heart,
I cannot get you to leave my mind,
I do not want to have you leave my mind,
You have become my safety,
My sanity when all the rest of the world seems blind,
My life with meaning again,
Everything you have done,
Everything you have said,
Everything that I feel speaks to me,
Wondering where you have been before,
Knowing that you were brought in my life for a reason,
Knowing that you are forever in my mind,
Knowing you have broken down the walls,
Knowing that you have made me smile,
The smile I thought might have been…

Please Say The Words

Please say those words again,
Say how much you love me,
Say how much you think I am beautiful,
Say how much you think I am wonderful,
Say how much you need me,
Say how much you need me in your life,
Tell me about how I am your happiness,
Tell me about how I am everything you ever need,
Tell me about how much I am needed in your life,
That you cannot live without me,
Tell me about the dreams we will make reality,
Tell me about the nightmares ceasing,
Tell me about the thoughts you think of when we do not speak,
Tell me about the thoughts you think whenever you hear my voice,
Tell me about the thoughts you think of whenever I come into your mind,
Please say those words again my love,
I need to hear them more than ever before,
I need to hear those words spoken again,
My life has been filled with madness,
My sanity seems to hold by the threads of your love,
My dreams seemed so shaded and the light of them gone,
My thoughts were taken over by madness until you came into my life,
Tell me about how much I mean to…

Wake Me Up

Wake me up,
This has to be a dream,
This cannot be reality,
This has to be a memory,
This has to be anything but what it is,
This cannot be true,
This cannot be real,
This cannot be what is in my mind,
Wake me up from this nightmare,
Of the pain and suffering,
The silence and the rain,
Someone wake me up from this moment,
Wake me up and tell me that this is not real,
Wake me up and tell me that this is just a bad dream,
That this isn’t the reality of my life,
I need to feel the smiles again,
I need to feel the sun on me again,
I need to not feel suffocated in my mind,
I need to feel the memory of life,
The memory of love,
The memory of happiness,
Wake me up darling I need out of this world,
I need back where you are,
I need back in your arms,
I need back where thoughts and love is not a struggle,
I need back where things are different,
Where I am accepted for who I am,
Where I am accepted for being the person I am,
Where my life means more than it seems to mean now,
Where my dreams seem to have meaning again and …

I Promise You

I promise you this my love,
That I will love you despite what others might say,
That my last breath would be of you,
That my last thought would be of you,
That my last moment would be with you,
I promise with every breath of my being to stand up for you,
To stand up for what is you and me,
To stand up for this that has been brought to us,
We didn’t mean perhaps for this to happen the way it has,
But it has happened regardless,
I promise you my heart and my soul,
You are everything I have always wanted,
And everything I wasn’t expecting,
And everything I needed,
And everything I wanted in the deepest part of my soul,
And the dreams that was left unspoken yet true,
And the thoughts that were there before you said them,
I promise you this,
You have a part of heart because my heart calls you,
My mind says your name silently but loudly,
Eternity seems to beat on forever,
And the moments slow down and all I see is us,
Within the rain of moments,
The good and the bad,
The moments just return to this,
The simplicity …

How Can I Not

How can I not love you more deeply than I have loved anyone?
How can I not want to hold you in my arms and never let you go,
How can I not want to give you pleasure instead of the pain you have felt?
How can I not want to just show you all the love inside of me?
How can I not want to travel to your heart and make myself at home?
How can I not want this?
How could I help myself around you?
When just the first sentence you typed to me
Transported me and took me away from everything out?
When just the soft spoken moment in your voice
Sends shivers down my spine?
You are like a piece that I have been searching for,
A moment lost in the sea finally found,
A dream that was put in the wings
Never thinking it would come true,
But has been blessed by you,
How can I not want to be with you every moment?
Every second of the day?
How can I not want to wipe any tears from the past away?
How can I not want to show you truly and for once the true reality
Of what love really is?
How can I not just want to hold you and te…

I Need You

I need you my lover,
I need you tonight,
I need to have you near me,
And I need to have you hold me tight,
I need for you to kiss me,
I need you to love me,
I need you to hold me,
I need you to please me,
I need you in every way,
Every way I can,
Until we cannot breathe,
And all we hear is our hearts,
Our hearts beating as one,
Beat together, beat together,
Louder and louder,
Than soft again,
I need you my darling,
I need you here and now,
I need you so much that my being aches,
Because you are not here beside me,
Because my soul doesn’t feel the same,
My breathing doesn’t feel the same,
My mind doesn’t feel the same,
My heart doesn’t feel the same,
I need you so much it hurts,
It hurts whenever you are not near,
I need to have you with me,
I need you here,
I need you my lover,
My soul and dream,
My love and my life,
My heart and my everything,
I need you,
And I cannot stand not having you,
Because you are my breathe
And I cannot breathe truly without you,
Because you are the piece of my heart,
That has been missing too …