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Everybody Says Painful Things Nobody Says Loving Things

Everybody says hateful things nobody says positive things,
It seems in these days anymore,
Always a hurtful comment comes about,
From this or that,
It’s around us all the time,
All this negative,
All this not so positive,
Whatever happened to happier times?
Whatever happened to being kind to each other?
Whatever happened to loving each other?
Everybody says painful things nobody says loving things,
So it seems in today’s world,
There are not many kind gestures anymore it seems,
Always seems to be filled with limitations,
Or a catch of some sorts somewhere,
There doesn’t seem to be what there was before,
There is so much hurt that we give,
There is so much hurt that we get,
There is so much fighting,
There is so much war instead of love,
Everybody says painful things nobody says wonderful things,
It seems to be uncommon place,
It seems to be shattered around instead of in abundance,
Things need to change,
These things cannot keep going,
We got to stop these hateful things,
We got to stop these hurtful things,
We…

I Want To Feel It Again

I want to feel it again,
The power of our kiss,
The way it feels like fireworks,
The expanding of energy,
As it goes through our bodies together,
I want to feel it again,
The power of your arms around mine,
The way I melt,
The way I sigh,
The way everything just seems perfect,
Everything seems just right,
I want to feel it again,
The electricity that flows through me,
Whenever you massage my back,
And massage my shoulders,
As we lay next to each other,
I want to feel it again,
Your fingers around mine,
As you hold my hand close to you,
These emotions are so true,
These emotions of our love,
It is a power onto it’s own,
It’s an energy that cannot be denied,
That only keeps expanding through time,
I want to feel it again,
The breathlessness I feel whenever you smile,
The way my heart feels happy and light,
The way my life feels so very right,
There is no denying it,
There is no going around it,
This explosion of love,
Cannot be contained,
It keeps on expanding,
It keeps on going,
More and more every day,
I want to feel i…

The Noises Of Our Hearts

Silent are the actions,
Words that aren’t always spoken,
But are loud within my heart and soul,
Emotions that are deep within me,
The love that pours throughout
Every part of my being,
Whenever I lay into your arms,
My heart beats loudly inside,
Knowing that this is what I’ve been looking for,
This is what I’ve been waiting for,
Every breath I breathe whenever I am with you,
Seems to find a sigh at times,
Such a perfect state of being,
Feeling so happy and free,
Feeling more whole and complete,
Than ever before,
Eternal is every moment I spend with you,
The moments that stay within my heart,
The moments that stay within my mind,
Even after I have to leave your side,
I belong to you,
This I know with my whole heart and soul,
I belong beside you,
We complete each other,
As God intended it to be,
Whenever I am with you,
All the other noises around,
Cannot compete with being by you,
I listen to your heart,
As I rest my head against you,
I smile as it beats,
I smile knowing the innermost thoughts,
Knowing that your love …

Everything Slows Down

With you by me the moment,
The seconds,
The minutes,
The hours,
The days,
Everything slows down,
I hold onto you,
I smile every moment,
I cannot help it,
This feeling inside,
The way I light up
Just thinking about you,
Just holding you,
Just talking to you,
Because everything slows down,
I cannot explain it,
I cannot put words to it,
But even if time seems
To keep going around us,
It feels different with you around,
Happiness is around me,
Love glows inside my heart,
Inside my soul,
Everything in my life is forever changed,
This is what dreams are made of,
With you by me the moment,
The seconds,
The minutes,
The hours,
The days,
Every single thing slows down,
I have wished for this for so long,
For these moments,
For a love so strong,
For a fullness I feel with you,
Everything slows down,
Nothing else seems to matter,
As long as you are by me,
As long as you hold me,
As long as you love me,
These moments,
This time,
Everything that goes around,
Still seems to slow down,
With your love centering around me.

Should We Listen

Should we always listen,
To those stereotypes we see around us?
Should we always pay attention?
Can’t we see the things aren’t always black and white?
Can’t we see that just because of one thing,
Doesn’t mean you have another?
Just because one is skinny even as a women,
Doesn’t mean you are anorexic,
Just because one might be overweight doesn’t mean,
That’s the reason you have diabetes or asthma,
Just because one is male doesn’t mean
All they think is sex,
Just because one is female doesn’t mean
All of them like to cook,
Should we listen to these stereotypes around us?
Should we pay attention to those things,
Instead of paying attention to the actual person inside?
Don’t you realize?
Don’t you understand?
Can you not see how much it hurts?
By ignoring the person,
By keeping to the stereotype we do not see,
We do not realize,
We do not look enough,
To see that just because someone
Is a certain way,
Doesn’t mean they are that stereotype,
When did we stop looking?
When did we stop listening?
When did we believe eve…

Cold Winter Days

Cold winter days,
Even with blue skies cannot keep you warm,
But just the thought of you,
Just wishing for you to be next to me,
To be holding me in your arms,
Gives me the warmth in my life,
To keep out the cold outside,
The weather outside might be cold,
It might be windy,
It might be rainy,
It might even snow,
But as long as I have you beside me,
As long as I can be with you,
Cold winter days,
Cold winter nights,
And all I can wish for,
All I want,
All I need,
Is the warmth of your arms,
The warmth of your embrace,
Is the best thing no matter,
What the weather is outside,
No matter what is going on,
This life is so crazy,
Days are so few in number,
But with you in my life,
Every moment is extra wonderful,
Every moment is like being out with the sun,
Shining down on your face,
Like it does on a Summer Day,
So let there be cold winter days,
And colder winter nights,
As long as I am by your side,
As long as I am with you,
The cold cannot hurt me,
It cannot bother me,
Because with you I am always warm,
Always feeling love…

This Slippery Path

This Christian life is not easy,
There are times that you can slip and fall,
There are times that it isn’t going to be easy,
There are going to be times you want to do things a different way,
There are times you are going to fight with yourself,
There are times you will want to take the easy way,
And just let yourself be a part of the world,
But if you keep watching,
But if you keep going,
But if you avoid the slippery path,
But if you keep on praying,
There is a prize that has no worth in the end,
There is a way to heaven,
To a lifetime that is better than we can imagine,
This Christian life is not easy,
There are moments you will make mistakes,
There are moments you will fall below,
Because none of us are perfect,
And we all fall,
We all have hard times,
We all have to deal with the good,
As well as the bad,
We all have our trials,
And the tribulations,
But if we keep our mind on Him,
If we keep our hearts on the cross,
And remember what he has done for us,
But if we keep on believing,
We know that we can get …

There Is Light At The End Of The Line

I’ve waited for so long,
In this endless line it seemed,
For love to come my way,
For dreams to be lovely and not hurtful,
For words of kindness and not pain,
I lost the way it seemed to happiness,
The line of hurt seemed to have became my path,
But you God you had another plan,
Although I wanted to give up,
Although I wanted to give in,
Although I thought it over,
I never thought I could find,
But you God you had another plan,
You put me on a line,
A line that seemed lonely and painful,
But than there was my happiness,
The moment I stopped struggling,
The moment I let you be my guide,
You changed my life around,
You gave me hope,
You gave me peace,
You gave me love I was searching for,
Not just spiritual,
But on this earth as well,
You brought him to me,
The one I needed for love,
The one I needed for peace,
The one I needed for happiness,
So even if you are on the line,
A line to a road that seems endless,
And maybe sometimes lonely,
Even sometimes frustrating,
Just know that God has another plan,
Even when things …

Clouds Are Only Temporary

Clouds are only temporary,
They only hide the sun for so long,
They might cause rain,
Bringing on hardships,
Bringing on pain,
But it doesn’t last too long,
The sun always finds a way to come out again,
Clouds are only temporary,
They only come for a little while,
Although they can bring hard times,
They remind us to be grateful for the good things,
To remember to enjoy every moment,
To keep living life to the fullest,
To keep on going through it all,
Clouds are only temporary,
They only cover things for so long,
They cannot fully hide what’s inside,
No matter what we do,
Or what we might deny,
Because clouds cannot change what’s in our hearts,
Only we can let the light shine,
And make the change,
Clouds are only temporary,
They only hide the flaws for so long,
Because when the sun shines,
They are exposed,
Just like the sin in our souls,
But we can remember,
And we can rejoice,
In knowing that clouds are only temporary,
That change is coming,
That a new life is to be had,
Because God is in our lives,
And sun can shi…

We Are In An Emergency

We are in an emergency,
This world of ours is not what it should be,
There is so much crime,
There is so much pain,
There is so much hatred around us,
There is so many people living in fear,
What happened to peace on earth?
What happened to loving everyone?
What happened to joy on earth?
What happened to treating others well?
We are in an emergency,
This world of ours is not what it should be,
There is so much hurt,
There is so many families torn apart,
There is so much worry about not being safe,
Where is our safety?
Where is our peace?
Where is our harmony?
Where is the love?
We are in an emergency,
This world of ours is not what it could be,
There is so much indifference,
There is so much strife,
There are so many people not knowing where to turn,
There are so many people lost and not knowing their way,
Where are the dreams?
Where is the faith in God?
Where is the hope?
Where is the ability to lean on each other?
We are in an emergency,
This world of ours is not what it could be,
There are so many things that co…

Infinite Love

Infinite love,
Infinite dreams,
Infinite faith,
Infinite eternity,
God’s love is eternal,
My love for you is eternal,
These dreams of hope and peace are eternal,
This will keep on going until the end,
I love you with the deepest part of my heart,
I love you with the deepest part of my soul,
God brought us together,
For this I know,
And I know that this love is infinite,
My dreams with you are forever,
This faith in us,
And in Him is eternal,
I will stand by your side forever,
Infinite eternity,
Infinite faith,
Infinite dreams,
Infinite love with you,
This I know,
This I swear,
That I am yours forever,
That this heart belongs to you,
For as long as eternity,
This love will stay true.

Hang Onto Your Dreams

Hang onto your dreams,
Hang onto your life,
Hang onto your faith in God,
Even when life might be a bumpy road,
You got to keep going,
You got to keep hoping,
You got to keep believing,
You got to keep dreaming,
So no matter what others might say,
No matter what others might do,
No matter what trials and tribulations you might face,
You got to keep on going,
You got to keep on hoping,
You got to keep believing,
You got to keep dreaming,
So keep hanging onto your dreams,
Hang onto your life,
Hang onto your faith in God,
There is always a way to find a positive,
Even in the darkest moments,
Even in the darkest days,
So when everything seems dark,
Dreary,
And blue,
Just remember to keep on hanging on,
Hang onto your dreams,
Hang onto your life,
Hang onto your faith in God,
Believe in dreams,
Believe in love,
Believe in the possibilities,
Because until it is all over,
Until it is said and done,
Your dreams can still happen,
Even if you feel it cannot,
Because until your life is over,
There is always a chance,
So just keep on …

And Then There Was You

There have been so many hardships in my life,
So many ups and downs,
Some crazy times,
Some good times,
Some broken hearts that I never thought would heal,
There was time I felt all hope gone,
That it seemed that I would barely make it through,
And then there was you,
You brought the light,
You brought the change I needed,
You brought the love everlasting into my life,
I was at the end of the line,
Thinking I couldn’t go on again,
Felt my heart was broken one too many times,
I felt so lost and confused,
And than I did something I hadn’t done in a long time,
I prayed to God,
I prayed to Him to bring me someone,
To restore the hope,
To restore the faith,
To restore the love I knew in my heart,
To restore everything that has come and gone,
And then there was you,
You changed my life the moment,
The moment we started talking,
I felt a shimmer of hope,
But I was still cautious,
Although I could feel my heart wanting to soar,
Although I could feel my heart wanting to forget it all,
I wanted to wait and try to be patien…

This Heart Is Yours

This heart is yours my darling,
This heart has become a brighter one due to your love,
This heart has grown it seems since I’ve known you,
This heart has expanded since I came to Christ,
And accepted him as my Savior,
This heart loves you like I have never loved before,
It is so much stronger than it has ever been,
Even though I knew love before,
This is something that is so much stronger,
So much bigger,
So much more happiness,
So much better dream,
This heart is yours my darling,
Through the good and bad times,
The trials and tribulations,
As we both grow in Christ as individuals,
And as a couple,
I thought I came close to the best person for me,
But with you in my life that vision has expanded,
God has truly brought the person I am meant to be with,
I have given my hurt,
My pain,
My heart broken dreams of yesterday to Him,
And now that I have I feel so much lighter,
So much happier,
So much belief in love more than before,
This heart is yours my darling,
It has been for a long time now,
And it continue to be …

I Keep On Building

I keep on building,
Building this life in God’s Hands,
Building this dream on the hopes and prayers,
Building this world with your love in my heart,
Building this future on possible dreams,
Although the future isn’t set,
Although the dreams may change,
I have faith,
I have hope,
I have peace I’ve never known,
So I am going to keep on going,
Keep on hoping,
Keep on dreaming,
Keep on building,
Building a treasure that cannot be found here,
That lasts longer than just a simple life,
That can only be found in God’s house,
In a life better than this,
Where there is no pain and suffering,
Where there is peace and hope,
So I am going to keep on listening,
Listening to His words,
Let him guide my life,
Let him help me find the true calling,
I am meant for in this life,
I keep on building,
Building this life in God’s Hands,
Building the world around me with His love,
And the love I have for you,
I know that you are apart of my life,
Just as much as God is,
You are going to be there until the end,
We will walk through heaven …

Lovely Roses

Lovely roses,
Beautiful dreams,
Happiness comes,
Eternal love can last,
Many different meanings,
From the various colors on them,
Lovely roses,
Happiness never ending,
A gesture of simple,
That can mean so much to someone,
A simple flower,
One that has it’s thorns,
But one that brings emotions,
From deep within someone’s heart,
Lovely roses,
Wonderful dreams,
Happiness never ending,
Whenever you are with me,
I don’t need a dozen or even a single one,
Because as lovely as those roses,
As lovely as those beautiful dreams,
They don’t quite have the meaning,
As just the love in your heart,
Can truly bring.

Through This Life

Through this life there have been many ups and downs,
Through this life there have been joys and hardships,
Through this life there have been good and bad decisions,
Mistakes,
Hard times,
Good times,
Everything in between,
Through this life I have had my heart broken,
Torn apart,
And pieced together very slowly,
But now the tides have turned,
Life has changed,
And the path has become different again,
Through this life I have had to search for meaning,
And go through the trials and tribulations,
I was lost for so long but now I have finally found,
The peace,
The hope,
The joy,
The love,
That I have been wanting for a long time,
Through this life I have been a sinner,
And although I still am a sinner,
Things are different and new,
Because now that God is in my life,
And I have an open heart,
I know that as I go through this life,
As I put my life in His Hands,
I feel a fullness that I’ve never felt before,
And I feel deep love I’ve never felt before,
Through this life there have been many things,
But now with God,
Jes…

My Life Is Renewed

My life is renewed,
My life has fully changed,
Now that God is in my life,
And I became saved,
I feel that I am a brand new person,
Life is totally different and new,
I feel more strength in my life,
Even with all the hardships around,
I feel so grateful,
Because I have finally found,
What I’ve been looking for,
What I’ve been searching for,
For so very long,
My life is renewed,
My life has now fully changed,
I feel more complete in every single way,
A new dawn has come,
Putting light until the darkness,
I am giving all my burdens,
Keep praying for strength,
Keep praying for guidance,
Keep praying for the light,
As I go forth through my journey,
Through the rest of this life,
I know on the other side is eternal life,
Because I am saved,
Hallelujah I am saved,
I have found redemption with Jesus Christ,
And now my life is different,
It is renewed,
Amen.

God Has It Covered

God I know you got it covered,
You have my life in your hands,
Just keep on guiding me through the good and the bad,
I know that I might fall short many of times of your grace,
I know that I am not perfect,
I know I will make mistakes,
I know that I am a sinner,
But I know I will do my best,
I know I will keep trying,
And I know I will keep believing,
I know I will keep hoping for your guidence in my life,
God guide my words,
God guide my muse,
God guide my life to help others around me,
God I pray to you,
I pray that if there comes times I want to give up,
And throw my belief away,
That you will keep a hold on my heart,
And don’t let me stray,
God I know you have it covered,
As long as I let you into my heart,
As long as I put my life in your hands,
As long as I keep believing in you,
And your Son Jesus Christ,
I know that I will go through trials and tests,
I will have good and bad times,
But as long as I remain grateful,
As long as I am thankful for all that I have,
I know you have it covered,
Because you have…

If Only I Could

If only I could spend every moment with you,
If only I could just hold you close to me every moment,
If only I could look into your eyes every single day,
If only I could interlace my hands around yours every moment,
Every moment I spend with you is so wonderful,
Every moment I hold you close to me is lovely,
Every time I look into your eyes I see the sparkle in them,
Every time I hold your hand I cannot help but smile,
All the little things are so lovely,
I have been through many dark of days,
But every day with you is beautiful,
I have never felt such a love like this before,
Every time I am with you it feels that nothing else is around,
I am so grateful that God has given me the wonderful person,
That is you in my life,
If only I could spend every moment with you,
If only I could just hold you close to me every moment,
If only I could look into your eyes every single day,
If only I could talk to you every moment,
You have brought me such wonder,
Such beautiful joy,
Such beautiful emotions I never knew …

Beautiful Love

Beautiful love,
Beautiful hope,
Beautiful reality dream,
Beautiful moments with you,
Every time I look into your eyes,
Every time I hold your hand,
Every moment I spend,
I fall harder every moment,
Every moment we are together,
Every moment that we maybe apart,
I know that this feeling is ever growing,
I know this feeling is ever expanding,
You have become an important part of my life,
You have become a part of my family,
You are the person I adore,
You are the person I love,
You are the person I enjoy spending time with,
You are the person I cannot get enough of,
Every conversation,
Long or short,
Every day it continues to grow,
Beautiful love,
Beautiful hope,
Beautiful reality dream,
I have been through many hurts and strife,
Through pain and many tears,
I have made some bad decisions along the way,
But now I have been blessed by you,
God found the perfect person for me,
For this I know,
I know this in the very depths,
The very depths of my heart and soul,
And He brought this person to my life,
A person I could tru…

Thankful

I am so very thankful,
Thankful of everything that is in my life,
Thankful for having Jesus as my Savior,
Thankful for having Troy as my boyfriend,
He is wonderful and sweet,
Thankful for having my mom
As she has always been there for me,
Thankful for having all my friends,
Both online and offline,
Thankful for having those that became my family
Throughout the crazy years,
Thankful for my best friend Adam
Who has been there for the ups and downs,
Thankful for the laughter,
Thankful for the joy,
Thankful for the happiness,
Even thankful for the tears,
Even thankful for the pain,
Even thankful for the trials,
Because it has shown that I can get through,
That I can be tested and come through alright,
I am so very thankful,
For all that I have,
Even the things I don’t,
I have come to appreciate what is really needed,
And what is not necessary,
Thankful for all the time I have,
With those I have around me,
Thankful for all that has gone in my life,
The good,
The bad,
The hard,
The easy,
Because it has made me,
The person I…

Maybe Dreams Are Possible

Maybe dreams are possible,
Maybe dreams can be real,
Maybe they can be more than just imagination,
Maybe they can be more than some simple fantasy,
As long as there is the hope,
As long as there is the strength,
As long as there is the belief,
As long as there is the positive of what can be,
As long as you put everything in God’s hands,
I believe that dreams are possible,
That dreams can be real,
That there might some dreams
That comes to you that you never thought of,
That there are dreams that wait awhile,
Until you are ready to receive them,
That there are dreams that might be frustrating,
Because you might feel that you will never accomplish them,
But do not give up,
Do not give in,
Just keep hoping,
Just keep believing,
Just keep praying for the strength to keep going,
Because perhaps dreams are possible,
Even in the world we live in today,
As long as we give ourselves,
As long as we give our hearts,
As long as we give our spirits,
As long as we give our everything,
To our higher power,
Dreams are possible,
D…

Keep On Growing

Many changes have come through my life,
Through the days of coldness and warmth,
Through hardships and strength,
I have kept on growing,
Kept on changing through every moment,
Some changes were not always the best,
Some decisions were not always great,
Some moments were not always that wonderful,
But there have been happy times as well,
There have been changes that were good
Or changes that made a positive impact even if
Things didn’t seem like it would be at that time,
Although my faith might have waivered on many things,
I stand here today stronger than ever,
Feeling strong within my faith of God,
Of love,
Of hope of the future,
Of a better tomorrow,
Of personal growth,
Of spiritual growth,
Things might change again and again,
Trials and tests might be thrown in my way,
But I will keep going,
I will keep growing,
I will stand firm,
On this foundation that has now been built,
I am ready,
I am willing,
To keep on going,
To keep on believing,
To keep growing in the grace of God.

Believing In The Positive Of Tomorrow

There is so much pain and strife,
So much tears and rain,
So much war and hurt,
People being killed,
People losing their homes,
Jobs that disappear,
During this time it is hard to stay positive,
That things can get better from what it is now,
But if we put our hope,
But if we put our faith,
But if we put our prayers on God,
Than we know that there is a way,
That things can change,
We just have to keep on praying,
We just have to keep believing,
We just have to keep going,
No matter what is thrown in our ways,
Remember that this pain is only temporary,
That the hurt and tears
Is just a momentary thing,
The sun will always still shine,
Even through the cold and rain,
We just have to believe,
We have to realize that positive starts,
With believing that things can change,
That once we put our lives in God’s hands,
We can see changes in not only our hearts,
But things around us,
The way may not always seem clear,
And the way we might not always understand,
But if we keep on praying,
But if we keep believing,
But if we ke…

The Voice Of An Asthmatic

Having asthma hasn’t always seemed positive,
There has always been a struggle,
There has always been a negative connotation,
It has always been hard to see the positive,
Of dealing with this disease,
Never could I find a way to see things at a different angle,
Of seeing the calling that I was given,
I could help others that have this,
I could help others see how important it is,
To be concerned about this particular disease,
For too long there has been lack of information,
For too long people have treated it lightly,
Like it is just something that can easily be cured,
If you do a or b,
For too long it hasn’t been brought into light,
Just how serious things can be for the person that has it,
And the family and friends that support their loved ones,
But the time has come,
The come has to be now,
Where even though this asthma is hard,
And having times of not breathing can come,
That this is something worth looking positive on,
To see things from a different angle,
That someone needs to be a voice,
To those that…

New Beginning

There’s been a new beginning,
A new song in my heart,
A new song in my soul,
There have been some good times,
Some challenging times too,
But now that I have accepted Jesus as my Savior,
I feel brand new,
I feel the love God has for me,
Putting into God’s hands my life,
Has been liberating,
It has given me hope for the future,
It has given me even more strength than I could ever believe,
My life has been changing,
Ever since that day,
It wasn’t the day I started,
But it has come along since than,
I went to a church,
Felt welcomed and part of the family,
Felt like I was home somewhere,
Didn’t feel the resentment I felt before,
Didn’t feel like I was an outsider,
Didn’t feel what I felt so many other times in my life,
There has been a new beginning,
A new start in my life,
I don’t feel empty anymore,
I don’t feel like I am at war with myself,
I feel that there is some new peace,
There has been a new beginning,
Something that came out of no where,
But something that has changed my life,
Changed my life forever more.

Life As An Asthmatic Part 5

Things have been very crazy in my life that I haven't had the chance to write on the life of as an asthmatic. During the last almost two months I had been working two jobs the temporary job with Adecco and the ad job and recently I was able to quit both of those to start a temporary to permanent position on the 31st. When I had been working the two jobs I really didn't have the energy to write much of anything because I was always very tired after working the two jobs and not have much time to relax. Through that time as well I also have had some asthma problems. I have finally been able to get my medication including my preventative thanks to the Vocational Rehabilitation and got two new pairs of glasses that has been needed for a long time.

Now, as promised, I will go over some of the various treatments of asthma. One of the main things asthmatics use on a pretty normal basis to help their asthma is various medication that is out there for asthmatics. Through webmd we f…

I've Walked Down Many Paths

I’ve walked down many paths,
In this thing called life,
Going through many changes,
Dealing with much strife,
Many mistakes have been made,
A few regrets have been,
But I don’t regret the various people
That have come through my life,
Some were life lessons that had to be taught,
Some are people, who are my dearest friends,
Some were heartaches that shaped who I am,
I’ve walked down many paths,
Gone down many roads,
Learned about different kinds of people
Along the way,
Found great friends through various means,
And a life full of happiness as well,
I grew to love
And truly call home
The place I was born,
I’ve walked down many paths,
Sometimes not always understanding,
Sometimes not always knowing why,
But through the hardships,
Through the pain,
Through the tears,
Through the rain,
I’ve also found happiness,
I’ve also found kindness,
I’ve also found hope
I’ve also found joy,
And I know even at the end
Of each and every day,
I’m grateful through it all,
The good and the bad,
And although I’ve walked down many paths,
And…

Life As An Asthmatic Part 4

What a busy week I've been having. As one who is job searching I've been on interviews like mad having a total of three this week with my last being today. I had some small issues the other night and I hoped and prayed that please let it just go away so that I could get through Wednesday, thankfully something must have worked. As promised this blog I am going to go over in more detail the various types of asthma that are out there. One thing I would like you to think about though, is the fact that it is possible that other types will come out at a later date, there are some types that are known that are new to the world of medicine themselves. Just to refresh here are the types of asthma again (http://www.webmd.com/asthma/guide/types-asthma) allergy induced, exercise induced, cough variant, occupational asthma, bronchial, and nocturnal (nighttime) asthma.

First off, we are going to go over allergy induced asthma. This type of asthma is the most common of all types, even t…

Life As An Asthmatic Part 3

Most of Wednesday July 8th and part of Thursday July 9th was one of those moments that asthmatics fear. Dealing with asthma attacks left and right. Having to deal with the pain and tightness of the chest, headaches, coughing, tiredness, and drinking a lot of tea. Before going over what I promised to go over about the causes of asthma, the different types of asthma, and touching on treatments for asthma. I wanted to first go back over what I asked you to think about. Did you think about those in your life that is touched by this disease?

Keep those people in mind as you read about the causes of asthma. What triggers those of us that have it, to have asthma attacks. Asthma itself on what causes it isn't a for sure thing. There is no rhyme or reason it seems on why some people get asthma and why other's don't. There are though triggers that can cause the asthma to flare up and cause a person to have asthma related attacks. Some of these triggers as according again to…

Life As An Asthmatic Part 2

Today was one of those yay moments for someone who has asthma. I got a letter from the Vocational Rehabilitation Department of Human Services saying I was finally off the waiting list. What this means in English, for those that don't live in Oregon or in a state that might offer this sort of program, is that what they do is help people who need help getting into the work force again due to various reasons that might have either caused a disability or something related to that. Some of the other things that Vocational Rehabilitation can do is help with getting to doctor's to figure out all that is going on with you without much or any cost to you, give you help on finding a job, classes that can help you with job related things, and other things that I am not sure of since until now I've been on the waiting list. The reason why people have been put on the waiting list is that there hasn't been enough resources especially counselors and time to be able to see all the…

Life As An Asthmatic Part 1

There have been many titles and definitions that matched to who I am or was at any specific time. I think even as kids we go through these changes. Of course as a child though we don't think of the possible other things that might come such as diseases we might have to live with for the rest of our lives. Some are more well known than others. Some are even more life threatening.

All seem to have stereotypes of who is affected by it. This is such a story about the real life challenges of one with asthma. This will be a very public from a somewhat private life. It is time for the world to understand more and realize what asthma is. How it effects one person's life. The sometimes daily struggle that seems to happen when one has asthma especially when one doesn't have health insurance and currently not much income as well.

Currently I am looking for a job anything really something without sales if possible and something with benefits. I have a check list of things I …

I'm Your Girl

I’m your girl not because
Of how sexy you are,
Not because you pay my way
With my money being tight,
But because when you hold me
I feel the world melt away,
I feel the dimples show
Because I cannot stop smiling,
But because when you hold my hand,
And you kiss me softly,
I feel love and passion,
Dreams and realty,
Hope and bliss,
I’m your girl not because of how
You open the door for me,
Not because of anything material,
But because of every non material thing,
Your kindness,
Your sweetness,
Your smile,
Your voice,
Your eyes,
The way I glow,
The way I smile,
The way I feel beautiful
Being around you,
Feeling the wonder that is us,
I’m your girl
And was the moment I held you,
The moment I looked into your eyes,
The moment you kissed me,
I knew than and I know now,
That I’m your girl.

This Writer's Heart

This writer’s heart has seen
So much pain,
So much hurt,
So much rain,
Through people who betrayed me,
Took my trust and laughed at me,
But I kept going on,
This writer’s heart has seen
The beauty of true happiness
In terms of her friends that care
For her in many ways,
I have seen happiness
With having a wonderful guy
In my life,
This writer’s heart has been
Through many hardships,
Had to make some hard decisions,
Had to leave those that hurt me
Yet still loved behind,
Had to endure many things
At a young age,
But through the pain,
Through the hardships,
Through the happiness,
Through the dreams made complete,
And those that were broken,
This writer’s heart has found
The way through the deepest darkness,
Through the almost impossible ways,
To just hold onto the belief,
That kept me strong,
Through every good and bad moment,
Through the times when my world
Seem to be crashing down,
The belief and hope in love,
A love to completely reawaken my senses,
My dreams,
My hopes,
To banish the bad memories,
The pain,
The broken drea…

Never Will I Let Go

Never will I let go,
As long as these feelings stay strong,
As long as you are wiling to try,
As long as you hold me tight,
These emotions run so strong,
It takes my very breathe away,
You are the guy I’ve been
Searching for,
For so long,
There is no one from my past
That can compare to this,
I’ve been swept away
Never will I let go,
Not when I’ve found you,
My heart skips a million beats,
Just looking into your eyes,
I catch a breathe,
As I feel the hope of love
Restored by being with you,
Never will I let go,
You need to not be afraid my darling,
It is a crazy ride,
But life is a crazy ride,
As long as we have each other,
As long as you give this a chance,
As long as you hold me close,
Maybe it is crazy,
Maybe it has been a blur,
Maybe it has gone fast,
But time doesn’t seem to matter
Whenever I am with you,
I could feel as if the world slow down,
Whenever I am in your arms,
Never will I let go,
My heart belongs to you,
You hold the key,
I am your girl
Now and forever,
Because I will never,
Never let you go.

Night Sky

I want to walk under the moonlight,
Walk with your hand in mine,
Stare at the stars
As they sparkle above us,
Making a wish,
Staring at the golden moon above us,
As I wrap my arms around you,
And I kiss you under the night sky,
Holding you close,
Holding you tight,
I feel the night sky move,
The stars twinkle a bit brighter,
The moon seems extra bright,
As the light shows
Our way through the night,
I hold you closer in my arms,
I kiss you under the beautiful night sky,
Wanting the moment to last,
Wanting the world to just stand still,
Wanting the moment to never end,
Every time I am with you,
Every time I hold you,
Under a night sky,
Or any other time,
I cannot deny these emotions,
I cannot deny this love I feel,
It only becomes stronger every day,
And as I hold you under the night sky,
I wish,
I hope,
I dream,
And I pray,
To be yours forever.

Dream Come True

Laying against you feeling your arms around me,
Holding you close and tight,
Feeling the warmth of our bodies,
As we touch not saying a word,
No words need to be spoken,
As I listen to your heart beat,
I feel the dreams becoming more real,
Ever since I have found you,
Ever since that first moment I looked into your eyes,
I felt that the dreams I have always had,
The ones that were in my heart,
Came true that moment,
The smile on your face,
The way you hold me close,
The way you kiss me softly,
Feeling blissfully happy,
Knowing this emotion is stronger
Than I have ever dealt with,
Or could have even dreamed,
Finding it seems my piece of heaven
In your arms,
Life around me might still be crazy,
But having you by my side,
I feel the calm,
I feel the love,
I feel even deeper belief that life
Is going to be wonderful from now on,
Laying against you feeling your arms around me,
Holding you close and tight,
Feeling the breathe slowly,
And I sigh happily,
Knowing that happiness has truly
Found me in my life,
Knowing that lo…

Being With You

Being with you is a wonderful thing,
Every moment is true bliss,
Every time you have to go
My arms long for the next moment,
We can spend together,
Being with you is a beautiful dream,
That becomes more lovely
With each passing day,
Becoming more solid
As we spend more time together,
Being with you by your side
Holding your hand into mine,
Touching your skin,
Rubbing your body,
Sends electricity down my spine,
I catch a breathe,
I sigh,
And I breathe the very depths
Of the love I feel deep inside,
Being with you,
Being your one and only,
Having you look into my eyes,
Having my smile deepen,
Knowing I am sharing
In moments of complete happiness,
Of complete bliss,
Every single moment,
Every single day,
I become even more grateful,
Of being with you.

These Moments

Moments filled with blissful happiness,
Moments filled with your arms around me,
Moments filled with you kissing me,
These are moments that mean so much,
Such simplicity,
Such completeness,
Wonderful emotions
That surrounds my whole being,
I breathe in your scent
And I sigh
As the happiness fills my being,
And love fills my heart,
Moments filled with holding your hand,
Moments filled with looking into your eyes,
These are the moments I have longed for,
These are the moments I’ve dreamed of,
These are the moments many
In this world take for granted,
You my darling
Are everything I could ask for,
Everything I could have ever hoped for,
Everything I have wanted
For oh so long,
Moments filled with holding you,
Letting the quiet
And the peace surrounds us both,
It feels like a dream,
More beautiful than anything else,
But it is reality this beautiful dream,
These moments are real,
The feeling of safety,
And warmth that covers my being,
Are true,
I miss you when my arms
Cannot hold you,
I miss looking into your eyes,
But I ca…

Floating On A Cloud

Ever since the first day we meet,
Ever since the very first kiss,
Ever since the first time you wrapped your hands around mind,
Ever since the first time I have been in your embrace,
I have been floating on a cloud,
Feeling so high,
Feeling so light,
Feeling so happy,
Feeling emotions that were only barely touched before,
Every moment with you is magical,
Every moment with you is wonderful,
Every moment with you is dreamy,
This is exactly what I have wished for,
This is exactly what I have dreamed of,
This is exactly what I’ve always wanted in my life,
Whenever I am with you,
Whenever I am thinking of you,
Whenever I am dreaming of you,
Every moment you cross my mind,
Every moment you cross through my heart,
I feel like I am floating on a cloud,
It is a joyeous feeling,
This happiness that is inside,
This joy that I feel with you by my side,
The love that I feel every time I look into your eyes,
This beautiful emotion,
This beautiful true dream,
That is you and me,
This is everything I have ever wanted,
This feel…

I Want To Feel

I want to feel your lips against mine,
To feel our fingers against my skin,
To feel your heart beat
As I lay into your arms,
To feel your smile
As you gaze into my eyes,
Every moment I am with you,
Every single time I see you,
Every day that I think of you,
My heart feels so full,
Full of emotions that never
Felt as real and beautiful,
As the ones I feel with you,
My heart feels so blessed
Having you in my life,
There are no words that
Can fully express
Everything I feel inside,
The beauty of the emotions
I feel just being by your side,
I want to feel your lips against mine,
Feel your fingers as you touch my skin,
Feel as your warm arms
Wrap me into your body,
Feel all the emotions
And chemistry ignite
Through my body,
And I sigh
Knowing how wonderful life is
Having you by my side,
Knowing that all my prayers
Have been fully and finally been answered,
Now that I have you in my life.

You Serenade Me

You serenade me with the way
You look into my eyes,
The way you hold me close,
The way you touch my skin,
The way you kiss me softly,
I melt deeply every time,
The comfort I feel is so strong,
The happiness I feel is so great,
The love I feel is so deep,
Deeper than anything
I have ever felt,
You serenade me
With every small thing
That means so much in love,
It might not be songs you sing
With your voice,
But it is a song you sing
To the deepest part of my heart,
To the deepest parts of my soul,
You serenade me my love,
Just the way I feel
Whenever you are near,
Your arms are the best place
In this world,
Bringing feelings of comfort,
The sense of feeling safe,
The feeling of warmth,
And feeling loved beyond anything else,
So keep on serenading me my love,
Keep singing those songs to my heart,
Keep singing my darling
Because I am yours,
Yours fully
Until the end of time.

Breathless

By just a mere touch,
By just a mere glance,
By just one look
I become breathless,
Everything else seems to disappear,
Everything else just seems to fade,
The bond still young
But yet so strong,
As your hands glide against
Every portion of my skin,
The chemistry ignites,
Sending happiness
And warm through my body,
As your arms embrace me,
I become breathless,
You give me happiness I never thought existed,
You give me joy I never knew could come to be,
You brought me a love I only read in fairy tales,
When I look into your beautiful brown eyes,
I cannot help but smile,
By just a mere touch,
Just a mere glance,
Just one kiss by you,
I become breathless,
As everything in this world disappears,
And fades away,
All I feel is the happiness,
The joy,
The love,
The beauty that is us,
In just that one moment,
And I become breathless,
Knowing how much I have longed,
Knowing how much I have searched,
Knowing how much I’ve waited,
For you to come into my life.

Take My Hand

Take my hand my dear,
Hold on tight,
Everything is going to be beautiful,
Everything is going to be great,
No more having to be afraid,
No more having to be shy,
I am here with you now,
I am going to hold you tight,
Just from one day of knowing,
Just from one day I knew,
That this is where I want to be,
I feel so wonderful whenever we talk,
And that one night we’ve been together,
Has been the best in my life,
Take my hand my dear,
Hold on tight,
Everything is going to be wonderful,
Everything feels so great,
I know I am already falling for you,
And you said you would catch me,
And I know you will,
Because this is the best thing that’s happened,
In such a long time in my life,
So take my hand my dear,
Hold on tight,
This is going to be wonderful,
Everything is going to be great,
Because as our relationship grows,
All I can see is a bright future,
Of the two of us,
In love.

Since I Met You

Ever since I met you I cannot stop smiling,
Ever since I met you I cannot be sad,
You bring a joy I haven’t felt in so long,
Just one embrace makes me yearn for more,
There is so much chemistry between the two of us,
That sparks just seem to fly all over,
Every kiss,
Every caress as you hold me close,
Every moment I have spent with you,
Has been absoulately amazing,
I haven’t felt like this in so long,
You make me feel like a new person,
With you everything seems brighter than before,
Ever since I met you I cannot stop smiling,
I feel things I thought long gone and forgotten,
You have brought so much happiness into my life,
By just one night together,
I look forward to your embraces again,
Being held in your arms,
Kissing you like the night we met,
I look forward to being with you,
Ever since I met you I cannot stop smiling,
And I believe the smiles will continue,
Because you my dear are amazing,
And I feel so much with you,
Just from that first moment,
When I looked into your eyes.

All I Want Is You

All I want is you,
All I can think of is you,
My mind has been wondering,
My soul has been searching,
My dreams have been waiting for you,
You are my secret desire,
The one that lies in my heart,
The one that lies in my soul,
The one that lies in every part of me,
All I want is you,
All I want is to feel your caress,
To feel your lips touch mine,
To feel your hands entertwine with mine,
To feel your body within mine,
All I want is you,
The very breathe of you,
The very heart of you,
I want to be in love,
I want to be in love forever,
You are what my heart desires,
You are what will bring happiness forever,
You compliment the very depths of my soul,
All I want is you,
Because you my dear,
Is what my heart,
My soul,
My mind,
My everything yearns for,
And I know that you are the one,
The one I want forever more.

Memory Of You

I will never forget that day,
The day you asked me to be yours forever,
The world seemed just a bit brighter,
The sun seemed just a bit warmer,
Everything just seemed so much better,
But than you disappeared,
And than you went away,
And all the thoughts I had came crashing down,
Falling down hard like rain and hail,
I never really wanted to give you up,
I never really wanted to stop loving you,
I never really wanted to stop caring,
But it seemed that the choices in my life
Weren’t mine to have,
I wanted you still with me so much,
I wanted you still in my heart forever,
I didn’t want to give you up,
But it felt that my choices weren’t my own,
If there was a way to bring you back,
A way to bring back the happy memories,
A way to bring back the sunshine you gave me,
On the day you asked me to be yours,
I would do anything in the world,
Just to be able to stand by your side,
I still think of that day,
The day you gave me your heart,
The day I gave you mine,
And I know I will never forget,
Because as much as I have t…

Missing You

Missing the sound of your voice calling my name,
Missing the way I felt whenever I talked to you,
Missing the way I would think of you and smile,
Missing the way my heart felt whenever we talked,
Missing the way dreams seemed so beautiful
Just because I talked to you,
Missing the love that we had,
But you disappeared from my life,
You vanished without a sight,
And I was left trying to repair my heart,
And it seems sometimes it feels a bit broken still,
Tried to move on time,
And time again,
But now that I am free again,
My heart wonders back to you,
My soul wishes that you were never gone,
Would I ever hear your voice again?
It seemed likely not,
But a part of my heart wonders,
And a part of my heart wishes,
To hear those words again,
To feel those emotions once again,
To feel,
To feel again,
I sit here in the darkness alone,
Wishing I could hold you close to me,
But that just seems to be just a far away dream,
A dream that will never come true,
But a part of me wishes,
A part of me dreams,
A part of me wonders wh…

Unicorn

I am mystical and believed not real,
However I belong in those that have beauty,
In the deepest part of their dreams,
I am part of those who are innocent,
Believe in love,
Believe in a better future,
Believe that beauty is within
And not just on the outside,
I am pure white looking like a regular horse,
With the exception of a single pointed horn on my head,
I am believed to not be real,
But I am real in the hearts of those,
Who are pure of heart,
Pure of spirit,
Pure of mind,
Pure of love,
And I stand there beside them,
Through all those times of good and bad,
Reminding them that there is beauty,
Beauty in everything they touch.

The Problem With Love

The problem with love is that it is so hard,
It isn’t an easy emotion to express,
It isn’t an easy emotion to just hide,
You can hide being sad,
You can hide being angry,
But love seems to show through no matter what,
It will sneak up at you at the most inopportune times,
It will bring forth when you don’t want it,
It will hit you when you seem that nothing else could
Ever go right in your life again,
It will make you forget your reservations,
It will make you forget any promises you made to yourself,
It will make you forget many things that go through your mind,
It will tie your tongue making it hard to speak,
It will cause you to act like a fool,
It will burn through your mind when you think,
It will tie any other thoughts together unlike anything else,
It brings people together,
It tears people apart,
It brings happiness,
It brings sadness,
It brings destruction,
It brings peace,
It is an emotion that is unlike any other,
The problem with love it seems,
Is that there isn’t enough to go around in the world,

On The Ledge

I stand there on the ledge watching the pieces break,
Watching the pain flood through the gates,
Watching and wondering what is going to happen now,
The tears fall down like rain,
And I stand outside not understanding the pain,
I look at the pieces,
Wondering how they go back together,
Wondering if I am going to have the strength this time,
Are they going to stay forever broken,
Will I find a way,
A way to get through this this time,
I feel outside of it all,
Not really inside of my own heart,
Being through so much hurt,
Through so much pain,
Can the pieces really come together,
Will the pain really end,
Will I find the one I am searching for,
The one that have the answers to what is deep
Within my heart and soul,
Will he be able to heal it,
The pieces that seem so shattered and torn,
I stand there on the ledge watching the pieces break,
Watching the pain flood through the gates,
The tears hitting the surface,
Wondering what to do now,
Where to turn to,
Who to count on,
Who,
Who will find the pieces,
Help put them…

Where Do I Even Begin

Where do I even start?
Where do I even begin?
What can I really say?
What can I really express?
How can these emotions be let out without destroying me,
Without freezing my heart,
Without freezing my soul,
I keep trying to make sense of it all,
And no matter where I try to start,
No matter where I try to begin,
The same thing keeps happening again and again,
There seems to be no answers to the millions of questions,
That haunt the very part of my soul,
That haunt the very part of my heart,
Where do I even start?
Where do I even begin?
Where can it end?
Where can it even begin?
The emotions are tied so deeply in my soul,
The emotions are tied so deeply in my heart,
The pain from the words that were spoken,
The pain from wondering where to go from here,
The pain from wishing of simpler days,
The pain of missing those before,
The guilt of it all,
The guilt of still caring,
There are so many emotions that are running through,
So many dreams of times past,
So many dreams that were never filled,
And now I stand here al…

Love

It started with a simple caress,
A simple embrace,
A simple just one look into your eyes,
The sky was clear as a summer’s day,
Although it was winter at the time,
I knew from that moment,
That first look that was in your eyes,
I knew at that moment,
Without saying a word,
That love was started,
That there was no looking back,
There was no going back to what was before,
There was no way I could let go,
Perhaps it isn’t perfect,
Perhaps there is pain at times,
But I know just one look in your eyes,
Just one whisper of my name,
And I am brought to the beginning,
The beginning of the love,
The love in our hearts,
The love that lives despite everything else,
Everything keeps trying to separate us,
Everything keeps trying to break us apart,
But nothing can really keep this down,
This love is stronger than anything in the stars,
And it started with just a simple caress,
A simple embrace,
A simple look in each other’s eyes,
A simple kiss,
And it was sealed,
The origin of the love,
The love between us.

We All Fall

We all fall despite the walls around us,
We all fall despite the pain we’ve been through,
We cannot hide what is in our hearts,
We cannot hide what is in our souls,
Even though we have been through so much,
We cannot help but fall,
Fall into the arms of each other,
Fall into the embrace of each other,
Fall into the deepness that is us,
As your hands touch my breasts,
And you hold me deep within your arms,
As you push every so gently inside,
Making it impossible but to moan,
And scream out your name,
As you stroke the very depth of my insides,
All I can do is feel the pleasure,
And all I can see is us,
We all fall,
Fall into the embrace of the other,
Fall until we cannot stop it,
Fall until all there is nothing else,
Nothing but those moments,
Nothing but the warmness,
Nothing but the hotness,
Nothing but the wetness of us both,
We all fall despite what we have gone through,
Because this love,
And this moment,
This hot embrace,
This love making,
This dream of together,
Is meant to be,
And so we fall,
Fall into each ot…