Creative Writer Meets The World

When the arm pain started again after it being dormant for a bit and my migraines increasing to a more intense speed I knew my life was about to change again. It was becoming harder and harder to be on my computer for long periods of times even with breaks and my hand braces I was starting to use my phone more, yet I think a good part of me wanted to be in denial or hoped against hope that it was anything but the word I've heard muttered by my best friend before. The pain was already claiming many things and it was hard for too many to understand other than him even after getting the crashing devastating blow that followed before I knew it. Fibromyalgia. One powerful word that seemed to suck everything out of me that moment and made me feel that my life was over, my life was obviously not over, but things as I knew it would never be the same again. It has given me sure insane strength because you need to be in order to deal with the sometimes mind numbing crushing pain that occu...

Darkness and shadows are where my voice has dwelled, Ever since it has been afraid, To step into the light, To step out from hiding, My voice and words have always been, The strength I would draw from, To convey the depth of my heart, But pain and hurt has brought, My inner voice to its knees, Afraid to speak once again, Those words of depth and truth, Of beauty and light, Thrown against the wall, Thrown against steel, Belief that once was so simple, Scared to be felt again, Wanting to break free from chains, Wanting to express love, And to be given hope, To be given faith, To be given light, To float through as once before, Can you break through the darkness? Can you break through the shadows? Can you give it comfort? Can you lift this curse? The one that has gripped my heart? The one that has held onto my inner voice? Darkness and shadows are not where my voice belongs, It belongs in the wind of dreams, It belongs in th...

You will always have a part of my heart No matter where our lives lead, Even though we are no longer, Because of my pride and greed, I have to let you go, Even if it breaks a part of me, The pain is beyond great, But true friends always know, That even if you are not a part of my life, You will always be in my mind, Apologies aren’t always enough, To earn a forgiveness, Sometimes it is time, And sometimes you got to let go, I will always still be here for you, Even if words are never spoken again, When you truly love and care, When you’ve been through it all, You know when the time comes, No matter how it makes me feel, I know that it comes to that point, That I must let you go, Let you free from me, No matter how much it might kill me, At least a deep part of me, That has always been a part of you, So many years we have shared, Memories that will never fade, But I know that I must take this step, Even if it hurts the fiber...