Creative Writer Meets The World

Memories flood as the day draws near, Heart aches with the thoughts of us, Dreams seem shattered, Tears want to flow, Don’t want to look back, But can’t seem to look forward right now, Wanting it to be over, Wishing it would never come, Wishing I didn’t have to think, That soon it would have been, It would have been three years, It would have been what I thought would be A moment of bliss not this, Not this pain and sorrow, Not these red blood tears of pain, Not these thoughts in the daylight, Not these thoughts in the night, Not the thoughts I don’t want to admit to myself, I don’t want to admit that I miss you, I don’t want to admit I still love you, I don’t want to admit that sometimes I wish Things had gone another way, I don’t want to admit that it pains me not being with you, But I also know that it cannot be, I also know that things would have never really changed, I also know that sooner or later we might be here, I don’t want to admit sometimes it is over, I don’t want to admi...

You always know, I don’t have to speak the words, You always know, You always able to tell when something is wrong, You always feel the mood change, You always feel that something is going on, You seem to see the smile vanish before I do, You seem to know if something is causing me pain, You seem to always know everything about me, You seem to know the deepest secrets I kept long hidden, Yet you don’t always know, Yet you don’t know the pain and the suffering, Everything I do for you, I pretend so many things, I pretend happiness at times, I pretend smiles on my face when I rather cry, I pretend that it doesn’t bother me, I pretend to everyone I don’t love you as much as I do, You always know or so it seems, You always seem to sense the moment, Yet you don’t see everything my dear, I love you with all my heart and soul, I love you with every breathe and dream, I love you with every ounce I have ever had, I love you with every moment, I love you so much that sometimes it pains me, You a...

I dream about you, Wishing you were here holding me tight, I dream about us, The vision of light from the darkness, I dream about the future, Something I thought I wouldn’t be able to do, I dream about you, Wanting you to be here in real, Wishing that you were kissing me, Wishing that you could make me smile, The way I do everytime I talk to you, The way I do whenever you tell me you love me, The way I do when you talk about the future of us, I dream about us, The life and dreams I thought taken away, From the one that caused me so much pain and hurt, From the one that tried to kill my soul, But now it has been brought back, The light has returned, The shadows have ran away, And all I see is us, And all I see is the happiness, And all I see is the Technicolor dreams, And I journey through the blue and green, And I journey through the dark to light, And I journey to where you are, And I feel your arms around me, And I feel your lips on mine, And I feel your heart beat in time with mine,...

Written and dedicated to my friend that committed suicide 10 years ago today. Ten years has now gone and passed, Yet this memory still lasts, Ten years ago you were taken from me, Ten years ago you were taken from your family, Ten years ago you were taken from your friends, Ten years seems like yesterday, I still remember the call, I still remember telling my best friend, I still remember crying and not understanding, I still wondered why, I still wanted to talk to you just one more time, I still wanted you to know those things, That might have never been said, Ten years has now come and gone, Yet the memory still lives on, Yet the picture of your face Stays in my mind, Yet the wanting you still here, Is in my heart and soul, Yet the wanting things different Is always just a heart beat away, Ten years has now come and gone, But you have always lived on, And although it might have been ten years, It feels like yesterday today, We still love and care, We still remember, We still hold you...

Don’t you tell me lies, Don’t you give me that story, Don’t you tell me words you do not mean, Don’t let me see that glory, I don’t want to be told things untrue, I don’t want to be told a fake story, I don’t want to hear words you do not mean, I don’t want to deal with things like that, I don’t want to live a life full of lies, I don’t want to live a life full of untruth, I don’t want to try to believe in something, Than just find it untrue, I don’t want to hear the I am sorry, I don’t want to hear that you care, I don’t want to hear those whispers, Those words, Those actions, Those moments untrue, Your actions have now spoken loud and clear, Your actions have proven the truth, I don’t want to hear anything from you, I wash my hands and bid you farewell, I don’t want to deal with you or your kind, My life is too full of good things To be tainted with your bad, So don’t tell me those lies, Don’t tell me that story, Don’t tell me those words untrue, I won’t stand here and believe them, ...

I’m addicted to you just like a drug, I’m addicted to you cannot get enough, I’m addicted to you and the way you say my name, I’m addicted to you and the way you hold me in your arms, I’m addicted to you and the way you kiss me, I’m addicted to you and the way you hold my hand, I’m addicted to you I cannot breathe quite the same, Every single breathe has your name, Every single passing moment my heart beats, Every single moment I keep thinking, Every single moment I am dreaming, I am wanting back with you, One moment is never enough, I need so much more, I’m addicted to you, I can feel what you feel of me Just like the rain, It cascades down filling my whole being, It cascades down making me breathless, Leaving no choice but to only feel you, Do you know what you do to me by just saying my name? Do you know what you do to me by just kissing me like you have? Do you know what you do to me by just touching me? Do you know what you do to me just saying how much I make you smile? Just by a...

This is one of the hardest poems for me to post this is dedicated to my ex husband. I can't admit that I still love you, I can't admit that I still miss you, I can't admit these things out loud, I keep them to myself, I keep them hidden deep in my mind, I keep them hidden deep in my soul, I keep the pain hidden where you cannot see, I put on a mask so no one notices, I can't admit these things it would show me weak, Instead of the pretend strength I put up everyday, I can't admit these things not even to myself, Because than I will remember those good times Instead of the bad ones, Than I will remember the love instead of the pain, Than I will forget why I need to be away from you, To forget the things I need to remember, I can't admit that it hurts that you are not here, That you were not here when my grandma passed, That you were not here to hold me in your arms, That you were not here to kiss me, That you were not here, I can't admit these things to anyon...

Two eyes to see the beauty Of the love possible, Two eyes to see the love shine, As you say my name, Two eyes to see the dreams Possible by being with you, Two hearts finding a way home, Into something eternal, Two hearts finding a way through the darkness, When the light seemed scarce, Two hearts blended and intertwined, Into one heart, Two souls finding a way home, Into what was hidden for so long, Two souls finding each other, In a world so crazy and cruel, Two souls finding the strength, To stay together no mater what is thrown in their way, Two dreams coming true In one reality, Two dreams finding the love, That they never knew could truly exist, Two dreams finding hope Within the two of them, Two bodies forming one whole, Two hands holding onto each other, Two lips coming together in a perfect kiss, Two moments becoming one moment of true bliss, Two lives holding on, Two lives holding strong, Two lives finding a way through everything, Two lives finding a way to be one whole, Two...

You are forever, You are eternity, You are the dreams, You are the moments in this heart, You are the everything, You are what is needed, You are what I see in my heart, You are what I dream about every night, You are the thoughts that speak through my mind, You are the visions unseen by normal eyes, You are these moments, You are the never ending time, You are the beginning, You are the end, You are everything in between, There is no ending, There is no beginning, There is just this, There is just you and I, I have always loved you, I have always needed you, I have always wanted you, I have always dreamed of you, I didn't always know that you were the one, I didn't always know who you were, But one day you shined on me, Shined onto the darkness, Made visions true and real, You are forever, You are eternity, You are this love deep inside my heart, You are my everything, You are all that I need.

This was as could be imagined an emotional and pressing time. I barely got through my poem when I read it I got through about half before I started crying and barely got through the rest of the poem. The most amazing thing happened though all my grandma's kids were there all 7 of them even those that had been give up to adoption. The one I was most shocked on is the one that most of us had never seen until today. I also had a wonderful talk with my cousin Brian that I plan on spending some time with here soon. I also want to get him a g/f haha :) He's a very big sweetheart he has some health issues but he's a great guy. We got a lot of good family pictures and video stuff taken today. I am just in shock with all who showed up considering that my Uncle Richard didn't even know if he could find some people before she even passed. This whole thing has been amazing and I am even more wanting to find the other parts of my family as well. Thank you again to all who ha...