You Never Said

You never said you could do better,
You just left me that day,
You never told me you didn’t love me,
You just let me go my way,
You never told me you weren’t going to be here,
Instead you pushed me away,
You never told me a lot of things,
Instead you just left me here,
Wondering,
Wishing,
Thinking,
Of you,
You were my full existence,
A person I loved with all my heart,
A person I knew to the depth,
Of my being,
Of my heart,
Of my soul,
Of my mind,
But you left me,
Not just once,
But twice,
Once you just went,
No rhyme,
No reason,
The second you let me go,
Didn’t fight,
Just let me walk away,
You never said you could do better,
You just gave it all up,
You just gave it all away,
You didn’t see,
My full potential,
What fully lay inside of me,
You do not know,
The person I have become,
Maybe you would have even been proud,
Maybe you would have believed,
You never told me you didn’t love me,
Instead you just let it go,
Let me leave,
With all the hurt,
With all the pain,
With all the rain,
Deep inside of me,
I couldn’t trust,
I couldn’t feel,
I felt so lost,
That is why I clung,
Clung to someone else,
Clung even when all I wanted,
All I ever needed,
Was you to hold me,
To tell me it was okay,
That we would make it through,
Through that moment,
Through the next,
To put me first,
To see the depth,
The depth of hurt,
Within my eyes,
You never said many things,
I couldn’t even fully,
Look you in your eyes,
That last day,
That last moment,
I saw you,
I wanted to say,
I wanted to say many things,
But instead I just stood there,
Stood there wondering,
Wondering why,
You never told me you weren’t going to be here,
Be here as you promised,
But somehow I had to make it,
Make it on my own,
It has taken many years,
It has taken every strength,
Every part of my being,
To find my way,
My way without you,
Without you in it.