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Not Mine To Have

I want to fall into your deep blue eyes, I want to rest my hand all over your body, I want to kiss you softly and not let go, I want this to be reality and not a fragment dream, I want to hold you close and never let go, I want to show you the love that you deserve, I want to show you the stars beyond this dream, But I know that this is just a dream, Just a daydream in my mind, One that will never be, Never be a reality, You are not mine to have, Not mine to have beyond friends, Not mine to hold close and never let o, Not mine to kiss, Not mine to love more than friends, Not mine to have, I want to fall into your deep blue eyes, Just hold you close and never apologize, Just hold you close and never let go, Just hold you close until you know, Just hold you close until the world ends, Until it’s just you and me standing, Standing together as one, I want to fall into your deep blue eyes, I want to rest my hand over you, I want to kiss you softly, But I know that isn’t meant to be, At leas...

Forbidden Love

Loving you is forbidden, Knowing you is the truth, Wanting you is forbidden, Needing you is forbidden, Wanting you in my life is forbidden, Needing you in my life is forbidden, Knowing I can never have you breaks my heart, Needing you in my life in some way is hard, Every day I think, Every day I want, Every day I keep on wishing, Keep on needing for things to be different, Keep on wanting for things to change, But knowing that this is how it will be, Loving you is forbidden, Knowing you is the strongest truth I have ever known, Wanting you is in my mind honestly, Needing you is the only thing I desire, You are my forbidden love, A love I cannot have, A love I cannot let go, A love I cannot deny, A love I cannot stop wanting, No matter what goes on in our lives, My love for your is forbidden, Forbidden by the circumstances in our lives.

Water Flows

The water flows down my eyes, I can feel the hot tears steaming, I hear the time tick slowly by, Another day has came and gone, Another moment still missing you, Still wishing and hoping, Still wanting and dreaming, Still silently wanting you, Still wishing that I could just hold you, The moments pass slowly, And the tears seem to never end, I never wanted to let you go, I never wanted this to end, I never wanted to be without you, I never wanted this, Many days I sit and wonder, Many days I wish I could ask you, Many days I wish you would say you love me, Many days I wish you would say you need me, Many days I wish you would say you want only me, Many days I wish you would look into your heart, And than look into mine, And see that this is meant to be, The water flows down my eyes, The hot tears are steaming, And I wonder why, Why am I sitting here alone, Alone without you.

Price Of Success

They say that success can come with a price, That cherished moments maybe gone forever, That silence fills the walls, That silence is all that you hear, That often moments are forgotten, That the little things are tossed aside, They say that success can come with a price, That all one can see is the success And not the journey, Not the journey it took getting there, That success is not everything, That happiness is not just a matter of how, How you do in life, That happiness can mean many of a thing, That happiness is just dreams unseen, That happiness is the love in your heart, That happiness is the love in your soul, They say that success can come with a price, They say that dreams aren’t looked at the same, I say that perhaps they are right, But as long as I can dream, As long as I can think, As long as I remember, I will make sure that success doesn’t come with a price, At least not the price of forgetting one’s soul.

I Will Live Forever

Although I wrote this. I feel as if Shirley helped me write it as a message to her friends. Do enjoy. I will live forever you see, I will live in your hopes and dreams, I will live in your life whenever you think, I will live in your life whenever you talk about me, I will live forever in your soul, I will live forever and never let go, My time here has passed, But with you my friends I will always last, I have seen the hurt, I have seen the pain, I have seen your tears, They have not been in vain, I have gotten to walk with my mom, I have gotten to hold her hand, But even she knew, But even she understands, I left so many behind me, My son that I have raised despite the odds, My husband that took care of me, My great friends online and off, And my adopted family, I will live forever though you see, I will live in your hopes and dreams, And whenever you think, And whenever you speak, I will be there always, I will always watch over you all, You have always meant the world to me, I kn...

RIP Shirley Olson

Someone I loved today passed away as of last night. I talked to her husband and he found her gone about 5pm but we aren't sure how long ago she had already been passed. It's possible she had a heart attack in her sleep as she had some heart problems or a combination of her having COPD.. She was a friend a great person who loved a lot of people and was more open minded than most are in this world. She was also my mom. She wasn't my birth mom by any way but she cared for me and loved me like any mom would she supported me through so much. She was the one that helped me survive coming back home and offered a place to stay if I needed it when things were very bad. She meant so much to me. She meant the world to me and so many others. I will never forget her. I will never not still remember. I will never not still love her. She is in my heart always.

When I Hold You In My Arms

When I hold you in my arms I feel the magic, I feel it grow in my heart and soul, I feel the snow and ice melt, I feel strength coming back to me, I feel dreams and hope returning, When I hold you in my arms, I feel the blackness and bleakness disappear, I see all the answers to the questions asked long ago, By my heart and soul, By the tears in the dark, The tears that I cried for so long, The tears that never seemed to cease, The tears that fell upon my pillow many times, When I hold you in my arms, I feel love flow back into my life, I feel dreams flow back into my life, I feel the magic return, I feel everything fall into place, When I hold you in my arms, I feel things long lost forgotten, I feel things that was tossed aside, I feel things that thought could never be, I feel things that were thought could never come true, But than you came into my life, And I felt the grayness disappear, And I felt everything change, And I felt the colors come, And I felt something strong, And I f...

When I Think About Us

When I think about the future my eyes light up, When I think about forever my heart sings, When I think about wishes coming true, When I think about all the unlikely circumstances, When I see you staring into the depths of my eyes, When I see you looking into my soul, When I see forever looking back at me, When I think about us, I see the news reaching beyond the seas, I see the heavens open wide, I see the music playing, I see the colors change, I see future lives telling our story, Telling about how forever can come true, Telling about how wishes can come true, Telling about how even when all hope was lost, That somehow love found a way, That somehow love found a way inside, That somehow dreams found a way, That somehow dreams found a place to call home, When I think about us, I know that we are strong, Stronger than anything on this world, Stronger than any force that might try to pull us apart, Stronger than the winds of change, Stronger than any hate, We will always be, You and I,...

Snow Dancer

You dance in the snow wanting me to come follow you, You dance in the moonlight looking toward the stars, You dance in the dreams that play in my mind, You dance in the moments of forever across the sky, You dance in the thoughts that go on forever, Snow dancer keep on dancing, Keep on circling around me, Keep on dreaming, Keep on looking toward the stars, Keep on that forever, Keep on those thoughts, You dance in the snow wanting me to hold you tight, You dance in the moonlight wanting me to join you, You dance in the dreams telling me it’s alright, You dance in the moments that hold close and tight, You dance in the thoughts never letting go, I reach my hand out to you, I reach and call out your name, I reach and pull you close, I reach and tell you it will never be the same, You have changed my life in so many ways, You have changed the possibilities, You have shown me things once impossible, Snow dancer keep dancing, Keep on circling around me, Keep on dreaming, Keep on telling me ...

I See You

I see you watch me with your eyes, I see you listen to my heart beat, I see you wait for the right moment, I see you wanting more, I see you wanting to touch me, I see your heart grow, I see you not wanting to try to look away, I see you wanting growing daily, I see you needing me more and more, I see you watch me with your eyes, I see you listening to my heart beat, I see you wait for that right moment, I see you wanting more, I see you wanting to learn how to Make me lose control, Make me want to just always give in, Make me want to kiss you more, Make me want to hold you tighter, Make me want to give you everything, Make me want to keep on dreaming our forever dreams, Make me want to keep on wanting this, I see you watch me with your eyes, I see you listen to my heart beat, I see you wait for that right moment, I see myself standing so close to you, I see myself holding you tight, I see myself watching you with my eyes, I see myself listening to your heart beat, I see myself waiting...