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I Hold In My Heart

Another older poem I hold in my heart Memories of you, Thought of you, Feeling for you. No matter how much time, No matter what has gone on, No matter where I am, I will never forget you. Even though each year Gets a little bit better I will never forget My pledge to you. I will keep you alive In my thoughts, In my dreams, In my mind, In my soul, In my heart, In my being. You will never be forgotten By those who truly cared, By those who you shared Your emotions, By those who would have stand For you no matter what. As the anniversary Of your death draws near I will try not to think of Why you died so young, But instead of how Your life touched people’s lives, In the short time You were here. I will always be Forever changed Because you were a part Of my life. I will not cry this year For I know your spirit Is always with me And you wouldn’t want me To be sad every year The day of your death Comes by. I will instead smile And remember all The good times We went through And know that yo...

Exit Sign

The first poem I wrote for my friend Ryan that committed suicide. There is a sign on the wall That tells me where I'm going. I leave the crowded hallway As I approach closer To the place Where the sign is. I'm almost free. Free from everything But Nothing at all. I then began to wonder What is left And how he would have thought. If only he knew Where his life was going to be The next day. If only he could have Said good-bye As he approached the sign One last time. I won't forget him Or the lesson he taught to me. Which now appears so clear. Don't take life for granted. Remember your memories But don't make them your life. For you may never know What can happen And why it does. Show your friends that you care For you may never know When you leave the world And go to the exit sign.

Even Though You Are Gone

Even though you are gone, I hope you will know Your memory will carry with me. I just wish you said good-bye. I don't think you will ever know How many people would feel sad When you left this world. I will never forget you, Even though you are gone. Even though you are gone, Your memory will carry on. The memories you give Won’t be washed away. I just wish I could have told you Everything I want to now. You were a good friend Even though most people Didn’t know the real you. I just want to say thank you for Everything you have taught me, Even though you are gone.

Portrait VIII

This is an older poem for my friend Ryan that committed suicide. Ryan Long was buried by his own fears he used to come to me for help and he mattered to me and to everyone else and got mad in onetwothreefourfive seconds justlikethat by everyone who didn't know he was truly kind person if you knew and what I want to know is why did he have to go away so soon Mr. Death

You Are My Blessing

You are my blessing, You are the person I love, The person I care about, The person that helps me keeps going, The person when everything else, Seems to the point of too much pain, Too much hardship, Too much rain, You are my blessing, You are the simple easiness in my life, You are a person I can count on, Someone I love, Someone I trust, Someone I can put my faith into, You are my blessing, Something that is not complicated, Something that feels right, Something that feels that it belongs, Even through all the craziness around, And all the strife around us, You are my safe harbor, My anchor in this world, You mean so much to me, Sometimes I don’t know if you really do know, Really can see, Really can feel, Everything that I feel for you, Everything I have for you, You are my blessing, You are my truest joy, My truest love, My everything, I love you my darling, With every breath, Every heart beat, Every moment, And I know through every day, That you are my blessing, The beauty I have ...

There I Was Standing

There I was standing, Standing at the ground, Standing at the bottom it seemed, Not really sure where to go from here, Feeling the emotions, Going through the pain, Trying to keep the positive, Trying to remember, Remember that this too shall pass, Knowing to keep my mind on Him, Keeping my prayers, But feeling the emotions, Wanting everything to just fade, Just wanting a break, Tired of the testing, Tired of it all, Just wanted it over, Wanted the hurt to stop, Wanting the emotions to disappear, Wanting everything to just fade, There I was standing, Standing toward that edge, Where I could make a decision, A decision I could have dread, I could have decided to not, To not put my trust in Him, I could have played toward something else, But even through that moment, Through what felt one of the darkest, Lowest moments, That was going on in my life, I took a deep breath, I took a step back, I prayed, I put my trust in Him, And then through a belief, Through wonderful means, I remember th...

Changing Your Email On Yahoo Groups

Here is a simple step by step instructions on changing your email address on the yahoo groups. 1) Go to the yahoo group website 2) Click on My Email Preferences 3) Click on Add/Remove Email Address 4) Click on Add another 5) Enter your email address 6) Click on Save 7) Click on go to whatever you specified 8) Sign into the email account 9) Click on the email sent by yahoo 10) Click on verify 11) This should verify your email address and return to the email addresses 12) Click on the radio button beside the email you now want as your primary 13) Click on save 14) Go back to the preferences and click on edit next to the email address 15) Make any changes 16) Click on save 17) To remove a previous email go back to email preferences click on the add/remove email address 18) Click delete next to email 19) Click save As long as you follow this step by step process you will be able to do this for any email address you can have more than one set up on yahoo groups if you ever want a back up or...

I May Never Get The Pleasure

I may never get the pleasure, May never get the beauty, The wonder, The happiness, The sharing of a smile, A joke, A moment of joy, With you in real life, But you matter to me, You matter in my life, I think about you, Wonder about you, Hope great beautiful dreams for you, Pray for you, Smile when seeing comments from you, Maybe you don’t get to hear it often enough, Maybe you might need this more than anyone else, Because you have been down, You have been sad, You have been downtrodden, But just know that although, The meeting might be slim, Maybe one day life will smile upon us, Maybe one day we can share, In that wonder, That happiness, That smile, That joke, A moment of joy, A beautiful dream together, I may never get the pleasure, May never get to say in person, Thank you for being my friend, Even if it was through a distance, Through online means, That you still matter, Still matter to me, So just remember, Through those hard times, Through those rough moments, Through those hard...

Perfection Is A Thief

Perfection is a thief, We focus on trying to be perfect, Forgetting, Never remembering, Never seeing, The truth that is there, That we are going to fail, That there is never true perfection, That perfection was lost so many ages ago, And instead of looking to what we have, And what we can achieve, We keep on the focus, We keep on going, Toward an unattainable hope, An unattainable belief, Instead of focusing on those things, Those things that really matter, We try to be perfect, Perfect in things that shouldn’t matter, Things that fade away, At the end of the day, When we are called home, Home to be with Him, If we are lucky, And we are saved, Than what does it matter? Perfection is a thief, A thief of valuable energy, Valuable moments that could be spent, On more important things, Than trying to have the perfect size, The perfect hair, The perfect smile, The perfect body, Things that cannot exist, We all will go through tough times, Suffering, Pain, Strife, Things that can either brea...

How Can We Ever Be So Cold

How can we ever be so cold? How can we ever be so hurtful? Don’t we ever really see it? Can we see past ourselves? Can we not focus on those things? That is so really truly small? Can we not focus on those things? That doesn’t really mean anything, At the end of the day? Can we not focus on moments, Those really mean nothing At the end of the moment? How can we ever be so cold? How can we ever really be so mean? Turn our backs, Look the other way, Just forget everything, And just focus on ourselves? Don’t we know by now? Don’t we not see the truth? We keep on going, We keep on moving, But we don’t see what is around us, Instead we are too focused, Focused on our everyday lives, Too focused on our own pains, Not seeing what others might be going through, Too focused on little things That is so easily changed, Do we ever just stop? Do we ever just look? Do we ever just take that moment? Think about someone else, Think about anyone else, Ask someone how they are, See what they are going t...