Creative Writer Meets The World

Forgiving you, Forgiving me, Forgiving what has happened, What has gone on, What expired, Through the many years, We both caused each other pain, We both caused each other rain, But now things have truly changed, And although it has been hard, And although there were times I didn’t know, If there was truly a way to forgive, Forgive the pain, Forgive the rain, Forgive the hurt, Forgive all the times I cried, Cried since that moment, Cried since that time, Knowing that there was hurt on both sides, Knowing that I wasn’t totally blameless, Through everything, Forgiving you, Forgiving me, Walking through that path, Through God’s grace, Praying along the way, Knowing that this is the first step, That it’s in God’s hands now, Learned that I truly needed to allow, Allow it to be, To find that forgiveness, The forgiveness we both need, Forgiving you, Forgiving me, Finding that way, Finding the time, Knowing the truth, That this is the true path, As long as I believe, As long as I ask Him, To f...

You can read about me, You can read parts of my story, But how do I really explain? How do I really tell my real story? These words I write, Are all true, These words I put out there, I try to put a part of me out there too, I don’t hold anything back, I keep myself out there, Every single moment, You can look and see my brown eyes, You can spend a moment with me, But do you really see? Can you really believe? Do you see my story? Words can really only express so much, Words on this page, Or another, You can see one facet, You can see one part, But do you really see? Do you really know? How can I truly introduce me? How can I tell you from mere words, Who I am? You can read about me, You can read these words, You can read the various stories, But what does one really say? How does it really truly start? We read things all the time, We look at various words on the page, But do we really know? Do we really see? How can we see beyond, That introduction of them, Do we give that chance? Do ...

All I want is forever love, Love that lasts, Love that grows, Love that isn’t afraid, Afraid of anything, Doesn’t worry, Doesn’t try to over analyze, Just believe, Just trust, Just jump, Life is always changing, The world is always changing, Nothing is promised, Nothing is guaranteed, But perhaps if you just hold onto me, Hold onto my hand, We will get through it, We will get through it all, All I want is forever love, Something that is wonderful, Something that is beautiful, Something that everyone can see, Want people to just look and know, Just look and know that there is love, Something that deepens, Something that strengths, Every single day, Something that just is, Something that doesn’t need to be explained, Or necessarily make sense to anyone else, All I want is forever love, Love with you my dear, You mean so much to me, So much that words cannot fully say, These emotions are so strong and true, It keeps on growing, Keeps on expanding, All I want is to be with you, I know that...

Another older Ryan poem. Two years ago I received a call. A call that would change My life As well as my best friend's FOREVER. It was just another day. I wasn't prepared For that call. The phone rang And the voice on the other end Made me want to cry. I didn't want to believe him But I know it had to be true He wanted to tell her But I said I should. So, I picked up the phone And dialed her number By memory And when she answered the phone I told her to sit down. I uttered three words That had changed my life And would her's. I told her "Janelle, Ryan's died." She accused me of lying And she started crying And I knew I couldn't hold my tears any longer. Just one phone call. It was only one phone call. And it changed my life forever. Now it has been two years Since he died For the call came Two days after he died. Two days too late. Too late to tell him How I cared How I was his friend How he was loved. That call changed everything And for that I will ...

I remember that day That moment The call that changed My world. The voice on the Other line. The coldness in it. How I told it I should tell her. How I tried To hold back the tears. The wishing I had known SOONER. The wanting to turn back The time to change things. Calling my best friend Telling her to sit down And how I tried to stay calm Until I told her. How she thought I was joking And how she realized I wasn't. How it was the hardest Thing to say to her. It was hard to say. It has been two years And it is still hard for me. My friend Ryan Long Had committed suicide On October 9th, 1997.

I wear my heart on my sleeve, I show my emotions every single day, I don’t let a moment pass me by, I don’t let a day go by, That I don’t express myself, That I don’t find a way, Through something verbal, Through something non verbal, Through words on the page, I want to keep on touching hearts, I want to keep helping hope stay alive, Don’t ask why I am like this, I couldn’t tell you if I tried, I am who I am, I am the person who loves, Loves fully, Loves hard, Loves with everything in my power, I want the world to know, I am willing to scream, I am willing to shoot, If I can help someone know, If I can help someone get through that day, Then I know it is worth it, I might wear my heart on my sleeve, I might show my emotions through many means, But that doesn’t mean it was always easy, Doesn’t mean it wasn’t a challenge, So, although I make it look easy, And although I express myself well, It took me time, It took me years, It took me knowing my own strength, And putting it out there i...

Another older poem I hold in my heart Memories of you, Thought of you, Feeling for you. No matter how much time, No matter what has gone on, No matter where I am, I will never forget you. Even though each year Gets a little bit better I will never forget My pledge to you. I will keep you alive In my thoughts, In my dreams, In my mind, In my soul, In my heart, In my being. You will never be forgotten By those who truly cared, By those who you shared Your emotions, By those who would have stand For you no matter what. As the anniversary Of your death draws near I will try not to think of Why you died so young, But instead of how Your life touched people’s lives, In the short time You were here. I will always be Forever changed Because you were a part Of my life. I will not cry this year For I know your spirit Is always with me And you wouldn’t want me To be sad every year The day of your death Comes by. I will instead smile And remember all The good times We went through And know that yo...

The first poem I wrote for my friend Ryan that committed suicide. There is a sign on the wall That tells me where I'm going. I leave the crowded hallway As I approach closer To the place Where the sign is. I'm almost free. Free from everything But Nothing at all. I then began to wonder What is left And how he would have thought. If only he knew Where his life was going to be The next day. If only he could have Said good-bye As he approached the sign One last time. I won't forget him Or the lesson he taught to me. Which now appears so clear. Don't take life for granted. Remember your memories But don't make them your life. For you may never know What can happen And why it does. Show your friends that you care For you may never know When you leave the world And go to the exit sign.

Even though you are gone, I hope you will know Your memory will carry with me. I just wish you said good-bye. I don't think you will ever know How many people would feel sad When you left this world. I will never forget you, Even though you are gone. Even though you are gone, Your memory will carry on. The memories you give Won’t be washed away. I just wish I could have told you Everything I want to now. You were a good friend Even though most people Didn’t know the real you. I just want to say thank you for Everything you have taught me, Even though you are gone.

This is an older poem for my friend Ryan that committed suicide. Ryan Long was buried by his own fears he used to come to me for help and he mattered to me and to everyone else and got mad in onetwothreefourfive seconds justlikethat by everyone who didn't know he was truly kind person if you knew and what I want to know is why did he have to go away so soon Mr. Death