Creative Writer Meets The World

Love, Such a wonderful complex emotion, Dreams, Hopes, Beliefs, Wonder, Romance, Everything so tied so wonderfully with it, Everything that can matter so much, Everything that can hurt you, Break you, Cause you to fall apart, But can also build you, Change you, Add so much more than you could ever dream, Bring such joy, Such happiness, Such wonder, Such peace, There are hard moments, Hard times, Hard days, But there can be good moments, Good times, And good days, Love, Such a complete ever compassing emotion, Something everyone wants, Rather they admit it or not, Something everyone thinks of, Even when things seem so dark and grim, Something that we hope for, Dream of, Want to believe in, Something we crave, Desire, And everything in between, Love, One of the strongest emotions, One of the hardest to comprehend, One of the ones that can easily be misunderstood, One of the ones that can seem so easy, And then so hard the next moment, And then changes all over again, Love, True love, Som...

Tell me why it’s so hard, Tell me why it’s so difficult, Tell me why I feel at the sidelines, In this thing called life, Tell me why I stand here? Tell me why I feel like I can’t take it anymore? Tell me why these emotions fill my heart, And fill my soul, Why does it have to be this way? Why does it have to hurt so much? Why does the pain penetrate every part of my heart, Every part of my soul, Everything that I am? Why does my heart feel so frozen? Why can’t this rain just pass? Why does it seem that the only thing constant, Is this pain, Is this hurt, Is this rain that hits this kind heart? This kind person? This kind being? Why can’t I find it? Where did I lose it? Where did I lose my way? Just tell me why, Tell me why these emotions, Why these dreams, Can’t seem to exist peacefully, Wanting nothing more, Wanting nothing more than something to believe in, Wanting something to hold onto, Wanting something to dream of again, Tell me why I stand here? Why can’t I be swept away from thi...

You stand there at the crossroads, Stand there looking one side, Than looking to another, Wondering which path to choose, Wondering which way to turn, Wondering where your life is going to go from here, Wondering how to keep going, Wondering who can you truly love, Wondering if your heart has turned into ice, Wondering if you can even feel, You stand there at the crossroads, Standing there looking down each path, Looking down both roads, Not knowing which way, Not knowing which path to take, Wondering what can you do, Wondering who to love, Wondering everything else that does not part From your very lips, I look at you, I look into those blue eyes, Knowing you more than most can, Knowing you more than most ever could, Knowing you deeply even more than some close to you, Knowing every part of you, Knowing how much it kills you, To keep standing there at the crossroads, To keep on waiting, Wishing, Wanting, Just some answers, Something to hold onto, Something to make things seem better, ...

No one wants the rain, Even though we all go through it, No one wants the hardship, Even though hardships make you stronger, No one wants the hurt, Even though it’s a part of life, No one wants to suffer, Although suffering in certain ways Can only bring wonder, Joy, Peace, And things that are better, Even if it doesn’t seem like it at the time, No one wants the emotions, That lay within them, They do not want to show it, They rather just hide, They rather just pretend, They rather not see what’s in front of them, They rather not see the truth around them, Even though all they are doing, Is hurting everyone around them, Not realizing how much they are losing, No one wants to handle the moments, That is difficult or hard, No one wants to help those that truly are in need, So many people are shallow, So many people are selfish, So many people forget to look outside of themselves, So many people forget what is all around them, They forget how what they do affects more than just them, Forg...

Note: I haven't been posting any blogs because I have been writing a novel for National Novel Writing Month I have now hit the 50k mark and I will be working on it more soon as I am not done with the story yet but now working on poetry again :) Looking for the answers in this world, Looking for something to keep believing in, Looking for a way through the dark moments, Looking for a way to keep believing, Looking for that moment, Where I can just lose myself without thinking, Lose the moment, Lose everything, Just fade away, Just be, Looking for that moment, That time that everything seems so easy, Wishing about things, Remembering the good times in the past, Knowing life is never easy, But sometimes it sure seems harder, Looking for a way to keep on going, Stumbling a bit along the way, Looking for that peace, Looking for everything in between, Can I just have that moment? Can I just have that joy? Can I just believe? Can I just pretend? Can I please I beg, But it’s not that simpl...

This is the Essay I wrote for Argosy for getting into my Master's Program I will be starting in January. Even at a young age when I was in grade school I knew that I wanted and was going to accomplish a lot of great things. When I was a child I was actually in special education until I was in the 4th grade due to having a motor skill problem I was born with and a speech problem. My motor skill problem prevented me from holding a pencil correctly and would at times cause hand pains as it does still to this day if I have to write too much by hand therefore as I am writing this I type everything. With that and the speech problem which people never seem to notice most of the time I worked very hard to get out of special education in grade school. This is just one of many examples I have of where I have worked toward a goal that most would thought impossible. I came from a single parent household with a father that decided he didn’t want anything to do in my life but I worked throu...

Emotions, Strong, Intense, Feelings, Over powering, Overwhelming, Ever compressing, Never comprising, Touches every part, Of moments, Of life, Of dreams, Of places, Of people, All over the world, All over from young, To old, To everyone in between, Emotions, Happiness, Love, Joy, Sadness, Wonder, Excitement, And every emotion in between, We all feel them, Some more than others, Some less than others, It depends on the circumstances, That one might go through in life, Emotions, We all feel them, We all sense them, Some of us express them, Some of us hide them, Some of us seem to feel them all, Some of us seem to feel others, As they go through the hardships, As they go through the joys, As they go through every moment, Emotions, Strong, Intense, Ever flowing, Ever going, Ever changing, They live within us, They are always there, Part of us always, Through this life, Waiting to rise, To the surface, Again.

Stars have pushed aside to let him through, Through to her heart, Through to her soul, Through to her mind, Through to the innermost being, To the depths that most couldn’t touch, Couldn’t even see, Couldn’t even try to find, To sense, To feel, To know the depth of her, Stars have pushed aside to let him through, Through the walls she had built, The ones miles, And miles around her heart, The ones that some tried to go over, Some went over a few, Some helped build, Some broke through, But was rebuilt through other things, He didn’t really know it, He didn’t even see, That when she met him, She was close to a moment, Where she felt to give up, She was tired of the walls herself, She was tired of the hurt, The pain, Everything that she was put through, She didn’t know if she could handle it, If she could go through it again, And then there he was, He took her by surprise, Got her heart going, Just as if there was never any walls, Any pain, Anything that was wrong in her life, Stars have ...

Sometimes we all need to look on the other side, Sometimes we all need to see other points of view, Even when we don’t agree, Even when we want to argue, Even when things don’t seem to make sense, In our eyes, As part of our lives, There are moments we have to be bigger, Than what we really are, To push aside the differences, And to walk along another side, We might not always understand, We might not always see, But sometimes we got to take that moment, But sometimes we got to take that chance, And look at the other side of the fence, Look to see that although you might not agree, And although there are times to disagree, That we all are human beings, We all have emotions, We all have feelings, We all have times of loss, We all have times of hardships, We all have times of gain, We all have times of joy, There are those that are truly corrupt, And truly evil, But we have to remember that not all things, We might believe in is so easy, As black and white, There are so many shades of gr...

Everyday things are changing, Sometimes days seem like weeks, And weeks like months, And months like years, We have our moments, We have those times, When everything seems to be changing, That it feels the rug is being pulled, From beneath us, We don’t always know what to do, Or rather we will sink, Or swim, We might not always believe, Those changes will always be good, Sometimes we don’t always understand, What the purpose might be, What the way will bring, Changes are all around us, Small ones, Large ones, Everything in between, The world is constantly changing, We are constantly changing, Nothing from day to day, Is ever fully the same, Some circumstance, Small or large, Will always be around, But it is how we handle these changes, How we believe in ourselves, How we believe in Him, How we believe in His guidance, How we believe in prayer, And is all those things, Knowing that we all are destined for something, No matter how big, Or how small it might be, That all these changes, Fr...