Creative Writer Meets The World

Decide on one negative aspect you want to eliminate from your life and the steps to do so. Not sure if it’s per say negative, but I do want to improve within my power the relationships I have with my family for my daughter. My husband and I been working on this on both sides a little because we really do want Harley to know her family. Something I didn’t really have as much myself growing up because many members of my family weren’t close or when things were tried people would get frustrated. I have already been trying to message, get numbers and addresses, and start trying to make plans so people in our family can see Harley and to hopefully keep that going as she gets older. Obviously I can only control so much, but it is something I would like for her and myself.

Decide on one positive you’d like to implement in your life and the steps to do so. I already do a lot of positive things I have never smoked in my life, done illegal drugs, and I barely drink. I have thanks to my natural path even cut down the amount of actual medications I take and take a lot more supplements. I’m not perfect but I don’t go overboard with the diet stuff and we eat now more at restaurants than fast food when we do eat out. Only thing I can think of is other than get my writing going again is find an at home job I can do especially once my student loans are discharged in April. This way I can help make some extra money to help out but still be at home with my daughter. I want to start looking at first different things I can do other than some survey sites, increase what I am doing survey wise (which I’m slowly doing), and take any notes of stuff I might need. The journal challenge is my way to start getting back into writing I plan on looking up some poetry prompts...

Manliness and femininity have been defined in different ways at different times. What does manliness and femininity mean to you personally? Well, this one is a bit hard as someone who was raised by a single mom, I didn’t really have a man figure in my life for the most part, other than I was pretty young when my mom was with this guy I actually remember calling dad. I’m actually friends with him on Facebook to this day. Two years ago I did reconnect with a lot of my biological dads family which has been wonderful. My husband is totally different he was raised by his grandparents. Personally, I don’t like many labels because there is just so much negativity to most of them including manliness and femininity. Personally I like that there’s less focus or I think there should be. Not saying men can’t still be certain aspects that’s usually associated with manliness same with women on femininity, it’s just where we start saying people can’t do things due to their gender, which mostly affe...

Why are you doing this challenge and what do you hope to get from it. I’m doing this challenge for a number of reasons. One, I’ve fallen off writing anything in months the last thing I write was an article like post in June of last year, so I was about five months pregnant at that time with my daughter Harley. Second, even before doing a few article type writings while I was pregnant I hadn’t done that much overall writing in awhile, it’s like my muse went literally radio silent. Third, writing is something I have always loved it’s literally gotten me through many things in my life and I want to get back to that. I know obviously there will be some challenges as I do currently have a three month old daughter, but I’m hoping this challenge will get me back on the wagon so to speak.

Long before I would ever been diagnosed with fibromyalgia I could not handle wearing bras even ones custom fitted. The uncomfortableness and pain from wearing most of the day would cause me issues. My then boyfriend at the time spoke words that I held onto for a long time more or less saying for how well he knew me I never did anything I didn't want to. This wasn't any sexual choice, but for sake of comfort and not having any pain from wearing bras. Nowadays even with how much has changed for women we seem to slut shame or assume women who don't wear bras are doing it for sexual reasons. Not even bearing to mind that many have fibromyalgia and the fact of wearing certain clothes can cause insane amounts of pain or other pain related illnesses that might do the same. Or the fact that honestly when it comes to the end of the day some don't wear them just because like me found them too uncomfortable not for any sexual related reason. Some are called names or seen not an ...

There is a certain hidden truth about PCOS or polycystic ovary syndrome, and that is even if you go to doctors and tell them about certain symptoms that are common for said health issue you can go many years without being actually diagnosed. The sad truth although it is the number one infertility issue in women is there is still not enough exposure, talk, or people really knowing what it is including doctors. Doctors many of times might diagnose with other issues that are not the true heart of the matter such as diabetes, hypothyroidism, and etc which is caused due to having pcos. This personally happened to me I had many of the symptoms of pcos even as young as 12 when I suddenly gained weight as I hit puberty and not due to food issues. However, all the kids that teased me about my weight only seeing that, not knowing the truth as I didn't know the truth. I would struggle until even my twenties with body image because I was curvier than most people I knew. With the media portra...

11 years ago my journey to become pregnant with my first husband without knowing about polycystic ovary syndrome and thinking I only had asthma at the time. I struggled through the entire marriage not knowing that my constant changing periods, that my weight, and other things were to be blamed on something I only heard about from another friend. With health insurance and seeing different doctors as I grew up no one seem to catch I had pcos until 4 years ago that there was something behind my infertility, weird periods, and the weight issue although some was due to hypothyroidism. My heart would break many years over and over to the point I felt I was never going to have kids after the diagnosis. Over the years my health issues would increase as if winning a horrible lottery adding more to the despair, losing hope of ever bearing a child, and adopting wasn't something that seemed possible to do. I met my natural path doctor in September of 2016 at a point where I felt the lowest h...

You cannot choose my path, You cannot bully me to be something I'm not, You cannot force me into a certain belief, Life just doesn't work that way, Pushing people beyond what's acceptable, Instead of just loving them for who they are, Who are you to judge their path? Who are you to judge what they believe? Who are you to spout out things? Discrediting other faiths! Discrediting other paths! Instead of just caring for people, Loving truly unconditionally, Giving all people a chance, Stop seeing people a certain way! Have respect! Instead of pushing people into boxes, To these labels that are more harmful than good, See them as what they are human, You cannot choose my path, You cannot choose my beliefs, You cannot force me to follow something I'm not, Just as you cannot choose other people's path, Or their beliefs, Or force them into boxes, Or labels, Or any of those things, Stop judging, You don't know their story, And each story mak...

Don't put me in a box, I just cannot fit, I just don't hold one label, I was never good at fitting in, I could never be just one thing, Guess my life was always meant to be that way, Labels were sometimes put on me, Ones I would fight, Ones I accepted, But don't put me in a box, I was just never made for that, I cannot be just one certain thing, It's just too boring, And I have to be me, I have to shine the way I shine, I have to dream the way I dream, I have to love the way I love, I have to believe the way I believe, I have to hope the way I hope, And sometimes I got to cry the way I cry, But I cannot be put in a box, It just won't fit me that way, I was never good at just being one thing, I have always been my mother's daughter, Open minded, Free spirit, But also a huge heart, Independent and strong willed, It is what has gotten me through you see, Many battles and hardships I have been, Many I am sure still out there, Strength ...

Why is there this war? War against our bodies? We can't just love ourselves? Love who we are? Society doesn't do us any favors, Telling us we got to be this or that, Can't be curvy, Can't be short, Can't be a certain color, Can't have this imperfection of this, Or what is perceived as an imperfection, Since when did we have to make war of ourselves? Instead of just loving who we are? Love instead of hate? Who cares if someone has tattoos, Or piercing, Short or tall, Curvy or skinny, White, black, or in between, Love should be the goal instead of war, What we are given in this life, These bodies, Sometimes not perfect, Sometimes later given to disease, And in the end we all pass on, We need to learn to instead hating what's on the outside, To love who we are as people, Stop caring what we weigh, What we look like, Who we love, Life is too short, Life is too precious, To worry about these things ...