Creative Writer Meets The World

No matter the hurt and pain, No matter the broken pieces Of this fallen heart, You still stand there, You know how to still Make me smile, Your laughter lights up my heart, When everything else is gone, No matter how much it hurts to breathe, I find a way somehow Because just one look in your eyes, Just one look at your face, Just one thought, And the broken pieces don’t seem to hurt, Don’t seem to hurt as much, Looking back over the years, Looking back over the words written, Just wishing for one more, Just wanting one more, Just wanting this dream, Maybe I am crazy, But I honestly don’t care anymore, Maybe they are right, Maybe I am wrong, But this is what I know for sure, I know that despite everything, Despite the hurt and pain, My heart still loves you, The love has never faded, The love has only gorwn, No matter what I do, I have tried everything To give you up, I distanced myself Causing only more pain, I tried moving on Only to find broken promises, Broken dreams, And false hop...

Dreams are illusions, Illusions are dreams, Sometimes what we wish, Sometimes what we dream, Sometimes what we hope Seem to get us through Those times of true pain, And when the hurt seems to surface, And tears want to come, And it takes every ounce, And it takes every breathe, And it takes every moment To not fall apart, And I want to feel A love like I thought I had, And I want to see The true beauty of my dreams, And I don’t want to go through it, Through it alone, The sadness that comes not due to him, But the dream that was shattered, And torn apart, The hope that seemed to fade, And the wondering if I would truly find What I have been searching for, Dreams are illusions, Illusions are dreams, Four years ago I stood there, Believing I had found what I was searching for, But it was just a dream, It was just a cruel illusion, Because now four years later I stand here, Alone without him near, And he is far away, And he has been gone from my life, And the pain is great, Although I try...

Okay time for a rant. I am seriously like done with certain things. I am soo beyond fucking tired of certain things I am putting my foot down. For a little bit I was friends with one of my friend's fiancee's ex (confusing I know) but I got tired of the whole wanting to know what was going on with those two and her not dropping things and moving on when they hadn't been together for awhile that I was like okay I am done. I am also done with people that know her trying to put me in the middle of shit. LEAVE THINGS THE FUCK ALONE!! Seriously!! It's his life he's not with her anymore he's with the one he is with and is getting married and has a child with her. MOVE THE FUCK ON!! Just let things go already seriously. If you don't want to hear about things than don't listen. If you don't want to know about things than stop reading it. It is your choice but seriously I am done. I got enough shit going on personally and I care deeply about my friends that I ...

Since I haven't written any poetry and I did post this on my myspace blog I am going to post both blogs I did over there here to put something newer here. Right now I feel like I am an emotional mess. I have sooo much that has been going through my mind especially as of late that I just don't think I can keep it to myself anymore. This year has been one of the harder years emotionally for me I have seemed to take some things that I took just fine in years or even year ago past harder this year. I don't know why but this year has been really hard as I think about past events or past things I have realized how hard this year has been for me and Adam both. Adam has gone through about the same amount of emotional and other crap as I have. We both have gone through some shitty relationship stuff this year. He was in that car accident and mom and I been struggling on things the last few months. He had to deal with a move and the whole thing that surrounded that just kept on getti...

Eleven years ago, My world fell down for a period of time, I was told you were gone, I wonder now if you were alive, What would you go through in life? Would you have had a girlfriend? Would you have had a wife by now? Would you have had children? Would you be working at a job you loved? Or hated? Would you have gone to college? Would you have seen that you were cared for? Would you see that perhaps it all was a dream? That the pain you felt would go away? That things would get better? That if you knew how much people cared, You would leave things the way you did? Eleven years ago, My world fell down for a period of time, I had to tell my best friend you were gone, I was told that I just had to be wrong, I had to do everything to hold it in, The tears and pain, Until I uttered those words, My best friend now was there holding me tight, Knowing that I was just given the worse news that night, And now I wonder if you were alive, What would you have gone through in life? Would you have fo...

Don’t look for me, You lost that chance, You lost the ability when I found out, You lost the ability to be even my friend, You played me like a well known player, You played me making me think, Making me believe in things, But the joke is on you now, I am no longer there, Don’t look for me, You won’t find me, When everyone else leaves you behind, You will be alone, And you will not have me, I would have done many things, I would have loved you until the end, But you don’t even deserve my trust, You don’t even deserve my love, You don’t even deserve any tears I want to cry, You don’t deserve anything, Because you are just a player, You don’t know what real love is, You don’t know what it is to really care, You don’t know how to be faithful, You don’t know how to be honest, You just keep on lying, You just keep on going, But I won’t believe it anymore, Don’t look for me, You won’t find me, When everyone else deserts you, And you realize what you have lost, You won’t find me anymore, You ...

Relationships are one of the hardest things we as people really go through. So many of us go through so much heartache and so many bad times. Some people get hurt once and give up and become a cynic. Some of us go through many bad times and decide enough is enough and become that cynic. Some of go through literal hell it seems and somehow someway find a way to keep going. Those of us that do that I tell you we deserve good things because we put through everything and somehow still don't give up. I am one of those people. I have gone through some hard times at my age. Everything from abusive type relationships, to players, to having to deal with a divorce, and gods knows what else. Yet, somehow I keep going. Although I have felt like giving up myself trust me it isn't always easy being someone like me! There are times even I wonder how I keep going when there are times that I just want to forget it all and just give up. But I guess maybe part of it is that I keep telling others ...

Maybe I am a fool in love, Who looks before really leaping, Who believes without knowing much, But I don’t care what people think, Or what people say, Or about possibily getting hurt, Because I know in my heart, And I know in my soul, That you are different than those others, With you I feel safer than I’ve ever felt before, I might have thought before things, Or emotions I feel now, But none of those even compare, None of those even come close, What I feel with you blows me out of my own mind, What I feel with you blows me out of my own soul, Maybe we are fools in love, But I don’t care, Because as long as I have you, As long as you are in my life, And as long as I know you care in my heart, I rather be a fool for the rest of my days, I rather have this happiness, This happiness that is brighter, Than anything I’ve ever felt, I felt like I am coming home, Coming home to where I belong, Whenever I hold you in my arms, Whenever I kiss you, Whenever you touch me, Whenever we make love, M...

Before you my heart was sad and blue, It went through pain and heartache, It went through tears and rain, It went through time after time, Thinking I had found the one, But was disappointed time and time again, But than you came into my life, And I heard a new song, And the heart that was sad and blue, That had gone through pain and heartache, The tears and rain, Seemed to fade away, And a new color was born on that heart, That day you came into my life, All the scars seemed to have healed, All the chains fell away, All the past seem to disappear, And all I could see was light, And a brand new red heart, Something with more passion, More love, More dreams than I could even imagine, And the blood felt warm in my vaines, And the love seemed to grow, Just from one glance, One look from you, Before you my heart was sad and blue, It went through pain and heartache, It went through tears and heartache, It went through time after time, Thinking I had found the one, But was disappointed time a...

When you came to me that first night, I felt we weren’t strangers at all, Because when I set my eyes on you, And finally got to see you face to face, And my eyes took on the full sight of you, I felt that feeling, That special bond that you feel, When you find your soul mate, Before I knew it I was touching your skin, And you touch the depth of my soul within a moment, And than you gave me a kiss, And than I knew even more that I found the one, You held me, You gave me a hug, And every single touch lite my soul on fire, When you came to me that first night, I felt I wasn’t looking at someone I didn’t know, I felt like I was at someone I love without words, Without needing to say a thing, Your kiss told me how much I meant to you, Your hold told me how much you wanted to be with me, I felt the magic between us that moment, And the moments that followed, I knew that I was yours, And you are mine, Even before we came to meet, That fateful first night, I knew from the first moment, The fir...