Creative Writer Meets The World

This month has been busy just as last month had been for the most part. With job searching most days, going to interviews, trying to get some writing in, being able to spend time with Troy and Adam, helping Adam with various projects, and getting my Oregon Health Plan stuff done waiting for my insurance card so I can see the doctor. Having rough times with my asthma here and there just trying to hang in there until I get my Oregon Health Plan so I can see a doctor so I can possibly get some answers. Adam has been such a blessing having me help him with various things and paying me and than buying me over the counter allergy pills to try to help with at least that portion so at least my allergies wouldn’t bother my asthma. I’ve done more testing for job related stuff for various temporary agencies than I like to try to count. Still been fighting on the unemployment gotten about halfway on getting things sorted it seems they ruled at least that I was available to work even with not w...

I believe as human beings even if you try to look at the positive side of things there is always going to be something you are going to regret even if you don’t fully admit it to yourself. There are many things I regretted especially before I became saved and accepted Jesus Christ as my savior. Decisions I made that were unwise but I try to not let them hunt my life now knowing that all I have done has been forgiven thanks to God. One of the things that was the hardest on me was not getting out of my previous marriage sooner than I did due to all the things I was put through. Including having my asthma become worse, losing a lot of my possessions, almost losing some of my friends, becoming depressed, and dealing with the abuse as long as I did. However through everything I believe although I didn’t realize it at the time that the trial I went through was something I needed to become a stronger person that would later commit my life to God. During that relationship with David there ...

I have many different good birthdays over the years however I would say my favorite birthday would have been my most recent which was my 29th birthday. I got to have pretty much a birthday weekend since my birthday was on a Sunday and being the day after Valentine's Day. On Valentine's Day we went to Wan Q's and I had a birthday party with a few other friends that joined in as well. I got to see Percy Jackson and The Lightening Thief that day with Adam and Troy. On Sunday after church we went for a nice drive, went to Claim Jumper, and saw The Wolfman. I was totally spoiled that weekend more so than any other birthday in quite some time. Being surrounded by my mom, Troy, and my friends also added to it. It is a birthday I won't forget anytime soon. With my 30th coming up it will be interesting to see what they try to do for that one.

I have had so many wonderful and amazing memories over the years. There are four of them that are up there on the top of the list not necessarily in order of favorite because they are all favorites for different reasons. The top four I can think of is meeting my best friend Adam, graduating High School, graduating college, and meeting Troy. Unlike many of my peers I enjoyed high school so when I finished it was a bit of a bitter sweet moment. Knowing I was moving forward in my life in many positive ways but it was hard too because I was leaving so many good things behind me as well. This happened on June of 1999. Graduating College was a lot like graduating High School in many ways it was a bitter sweet moment. Knowing that I accomplished something no one in my family had accomplished yet by that time being the first felt amazing. During my time at college I did change my major from Accounting to Business Management and Human Resources. I ended up with the Business Management p...

I don’t remember very well the first kiss I had with the first guy I ever dated. I do remember however clearly the first kiss I had with Troy. Although I have been an experienced kisser by that point in time I was still nervous. I was excited about being his first and wanted to make sure he had a great experience not only in learning how to kiss but to have a great kiss. When I met him I knew that this kiss was going to be different but I didn’t expect the electricity that seemed to just buzz through every part of my being. I remember feeling like the world had completely stopped and that there was just us. I remember wanting it to last forever. I looked into his eyes. I still felt the buzz from the kiss. I still felt my whole body humming. I felt something I couldn’t place than and sometimes wonder if I could place now. It was something beyond words and beauty. Beyond anything that could be described into words. Kissing him is a wonder, beauty, magic, and something I look ...

I believe your dreams grow and change as you grow and change. My current dreams I have include simple things such as getting my asthma where I can understand it more, to get married again, and to get some of my writing published from my poetry, short stories, and novels. I would like to even just get more writing accomplished and be able to write full time. I would also in the future be a stay at home mom and be able to home school any children I might get blessed with in the future. Although most people wouldn’t have a health related thing the reason for that on my dreams is that because I am tired of not knowing or understanding what is going on with my asthma. I want to know at least if there is anything if at all that can help it. I have gone through many different controller medications with no help. Once I get my Oregon Health Plan going I plan on getting my asthma and anything else. I haven’t decided fully about trying to get on disability but leaning toward it more and m...

My beliefs have changed a lot over the years. I wasn’t really raised in a Christian household I do remember going to church many different types throughout my young childhood from Baptist, Seven Day Adventist, and many others. The first time I was baptized I was about 13 and it was at a Mormon church. I had in one way or another always believed there was a God but never a firm grasp on much else. Although I ended up leaving the Mormon Church due to how they treated my mom they were good to us for a short period of time helping us with some hardships we dealt with at that time. From the time I was 13 until I was about 16 I didn’t really do much stuff that was church related. I did go to Youth group related stuff for awhile and even did when I got into Wicca thanks to my 2nd boyfriend. I felt at that time it was the best thing in my life I had gotten into that and Enya. Although I considered myself Wiccan I didn’t really do much to practice it for many years and even when I got mo...

Music has always been one of those things that I've enjoyed in my life. I have many different favorite songs for different reasons. I have found that usually listening to music also helps me write as it helps with the writing process. There have been so many memories some great and wonderful some hard and heartbreaking when it came to music. One of my favorite songs is Mandy by Barry Manilow. Without this song I would have less likely have the name I was given at my birth. Some of my favorite romantic songs include Faithfully by Journey, Lifetime of Dreams by Journey, Everything by Lifehouse, and Heaven by Bryan Adams whenever I am asked about my favorite songs these ones come to my mind every single time. There are many other songs I do enjoy. There have been many songs that have been dedicated for one reason or another throughout my years of life. I believe I will always enjoy music and my main favorite songs will always stay.

I am very blessed to have many great friends in my life. Several I consider best friends. Although the more quiet and shy type when I was younger I always had at least one best friend in my life. My main best friends over the last few years have been Lacy, Janelle, and then Adam. Adam and I have known each other now for thirteen years. Adam and I truly have gone through everything together. Adam has been my rock through some very hard times as well as some wonderful things. We have had our differences, our fights, our disagreements, but we have always gotten through it. We even had times of not speaking although now the last time that happened as been many years. I couldn't imagine going without talking to him more than a day anymore. He's seen me through some very rough relationships and it hasn't been really since my one with Troy that I have seen him agree so much on who I am with. Through the now over sixteen months I have been with Troy I have come to find him...

It has been a very crazy day for me and this whole week has been super busy. Today I had to go to Spherion for having to update two pieces of paper which was a bit frustrating as I had just gone in there to meet with a newer person last month and they didn't have me update anything that wasn't updated a month before that. That place has gone through many changes as of late in staff beforehand it didn't seem that they changed that much but within the last few months it has changed twice. Once that was done we went to the Department of Human Services so I could have them see the birth certificate, make a copy of that, and also get a letter stating my food benefits in order to send that to the Tuality Patient Accounting so that I would be able to get Financial Assistance for my last Urgent Care Bill I had through Tuality a few months ago. We went to Postal Annex so that my mom could fax her background check for a possible temporary position through Kforce at that time my m...